Should I move on or try and figure things out? What should I do now?

[Jetsetter96]

Me and (John) have been bestfriends for four years throughout high school, i had feelings for him on and off throughout those four years but never expressed them to him because I thought it would mess up our relationship as friends so i left it alone, during our senior year he expressed to me that he had feelings for me and I told him that my feelings were mutual but i didn't want to ruin the friendship we had plus by this time he had gotten a girlfriend so that was def no no. So we agreed we'd just remain friends, knowing we both liked each other we started texting each other heavily, we talked everyday for 3 months straight he'd even text me on his 30min break at work by now we had pretty much crossed the boundaries of being"just friends" although we never kissed or did anything extreme it was still wrong because he had a gf. While we were talking I would constantly think how could someone with a girlfriend have strong feelings for someone else? Anyways the thought of me talking to someone with a girlfriend was eating me alive plus I was basically disrespecting myself right? Eventually it got to a point where i told him we couldn't talk anymore because it was wrong and he said he understood (keep in mind this guy is superrr passive aggressive) so whenever I'd see him at school he would basically ignore me..... a few weeks went by and he texted me just to check up on me and see how i was doing.... at this point im just thinking wow this suck i lost my bestfriend because although we're back friends (sorta) it just isn't the same and could never be without it being awkward ya know. Welp after that we kinda just stopped talking to each other. By now we've graduated, its august now and we still haven't talked but i know that he stalks my twitter profile because every now and then he accidently follows me the unfollows and yesterday he officially followed my twitter so i followed back. Im so confused does he miss me? I just cant see how someone can be so invested/sad/ miss someone so much if they're in a relationship like is that even possible? Either way I've pretty much decided that I'd never talk to him relationship wise but i miss him so much as a friend..... we were bestfriends for 4 years... Am i thinking too much into this? Aside from that I've recently been hanging with another guy (lets call him Ethan) and he's a great person, we seem to have alot in common but I only see him as a friend and he's confessed that he likes me alot... Last week we went to the beach at around 10 at night and we talked for hours sounds great right? Before i knew it one thing led to another and we made out and messed around a bit but we DIDNT have sex, big f***ing mistake because i dont like this guy in that way and now he's def gonna be attached, it was just a heat of the moment type of thing... i know you guys are thinking wtf would i even put myself in that position but i didnt know he liked me until that night on the beach which is when he told me.. So for the past few days ive been kind of avoiding him idk what to do i know i have to tell him eventually btw when it happpened all that i could think of was my bestfriend (John) my lifes a mess right now pleaaaaaseeeee leave me comments on what you guys think or what i should do because Im so confused and i feel so stupid

Edited August 11, 2015 by Jetsetter96
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[La.Primavera]

Neither one of these guys is right for you, either romantically or as a friend.

 

Save yourself the confusion, forget both guys and move on.