Clarity4us Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 Please be gentle with me this is my first post I met this girl back in June of last year, Everything was going alright besides she always was sick. I did not know how to deal with being ignored all the time. in her eyes she was sick and in mine she did not want to try. So she finally explains she has Crohns and I looked it up. I felt a lot of sympathy for her but she seemed to be having a life but did not want to include me. I still tried, then after about a month of hearing how she was traveling here and there but wouldn't meet me, I just went on another date. I really did like her but it was getting to be too much. So she wants me to think I cheated on her. I told her all along if she did not want to meet me than I was still single. I made it clear, but I did like her. Basically right after I went on my dates with another girl she came to meet me. I really liked her. She even was talking about having a baby with me. On the first date, which made me laugh. Then she just kept accusing me of cheating. I don't know how the heck I was Cheating but okay. She started some argument a few days later over something I do not understand. She kept rejecting me so I moved on. She comes back after about 5 months to tell me she feels bad and thinks about me a lot. I welcomed her and I was sweet. She tells me she is 10 weeks pregnant. We started to be friends again and talked for a month or so then met. We really had a passion for each other. It was beautiful. Then she told me she didn't love me. I felt crushed,not asking if she did love me. Then she tells me she does love me,doesn't and we kept having stupid trust issues. I was trying to work through them. The reason I was insecure was she told me she was debating if she still loved her ex or me. I found it hard to deal with when she went out with him. She was still very sick and I was visiting her in the hospital and being loving. This went on and she finally told me she was in love with me one night in my car. I was on cloud nine. It was really great and 3 weeks later she just wanted to be friends...to make a long story even longer...I was very upset at that. It took a toll on me emotionally. I was getting tired of her ignoring me but being on her phone the entire time we were together. I really felt she was not happy and wanted to end it so I just said we should just be friends. She lost it. I knew she was pregnant but she was not happy with me so why torture us both. It was easier and happier if we just let it go. She fought to keep me so I stayed for another round. I guess. It was all going well and I was loving ad she was then it just started fading. I went to see her in the hospital one night and she told me she was not in love with me anymore. It about killed me. I guess I saw it coming but we were doing fine I thought. Anyways I tried to ignore her for a day after that and she told me she hated me and was on the phone with her ex for 7 hours. I felt disgusted. I was so upset that he got 7 hours of her time and I had not in a month. So I ended it. Two weeks we went with not talking and it was hell so I would write every now and again. She finally wrote me telling me she was happy and I was losing it over stupid stuff. I don't remember it being that way at all but okay... So I apologize as usual and got presents for the baby. I was excited to meet the baby. I listened to his heartbeat and talked to him and just got attached to both of them. She told me I could come on the birth day. Then That day came and she just wanted to text for 16 hours. I tried to call and got yelled at and I tried to come but she said I was being too pushy. It has been two weeks and I am pretty upset. She told me when she got home, I could see him. She did send pictures but she has only wrote me once in 2 weeks to tell me she is so so sorry but moving and the baby, and being sick is taking a toll. I told her I would help and just nothing. She moved closer to me and we were both happy that we would only be 18 mins away. I just do not get how she could have ever loved me acting this way. I think it was pregnancy hormones, I really do not want to try anymore. It feels like she has just sucked the life outta me. I feel drained and unhappy with being thrown about. I don't want her to think I abandoned her but don't know how to deal with any of this. She hates me and loves me back and forth. She wanted to get married and didn't all within a couple weeks?? How do I handle this, thank you for reading my story, if you made it this far, lol. How do I handle this without causing stress? She hates when I ignore her so I don't want to start a problem like that again but just can talk to her either. She yells when I get upset at anything. I don't want her to be stressed. I guess it is over but I really just am confused. Imma let her come to me, even if it means starting a problem, I don't know. Thanx for listening and letting me vent.
RoseVille Posted August 9, 2015 Posted August 9, 2015 You don't "handle this." You just cut all ties, immediately, and with finality.
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