JamesThomas Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 I'm a musician so I'm kinda screwed at the moment. I broke up with my girlfriend on Sunday night and ever since I can't stop thinking of sad songs that make me want to burst into tears. It's not just that though. I've been happy all day "Finally getting over it!" I told myself, been really cheery. Then I was sitting in a cafe and even listening to happy dance music, I get flashes in my head of myself and my ex dancing together happily and still together. As if my mind is picturing things that could and should have been, a possible future, and is now taunting me because I know it'll never happen. Wheneve this happens I feel a very slow feeling of sadness and dread welling up inside of me and I hate it!!! I've been happy all damn day but now I'm sitting here shaking my head feeling sad again. Right now it feels like whatever is left of my happiness is trying really hard to fight back the pain with a stick but the pain keeps bombarding it with images and music and the happiness is getting overwhelmed.
aloneinaz Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 There's a reason why.. You just broke up! You're going to feel this way for a while. Clearly, there was something that made you eject her from your life. Don't lose sight of that. We've all been there playing the "what if" game after a relationship imploded. It's hard to "let go" once a decision has been made. Just go with the feelings and don't fight them. It's a normal part of the process.
Jimmyjackson Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 If you're a musician then put your feelings into lyrics! I think the great thing about music is it lets artists get out of their heads and make music from feelings they can't quite put into words. 1
Author JamesThomas Posted July 30, 2015 Author Posted July 30, 2015 If you're a musician then put your feelings into lyrics! I think the great thing about music is it lets artists get out of their heads and make music from feelings they can't quite put into words. That's true and it beats crying I guess.
Jimmyjackson Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 That's true and it beats crying I guess. I've just started learning guitar, takes my mind off things
mightycpa Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 This one ought to both express your feelings, and cheer you up:
sowhynot Posted July 30, 2015 Posted July 30, 2015 Shows my age but 'And The Beat Goes On' by The Wispers certainly cheers me up. Do you ever wonder That to win, somebody's got to lose I might as well get over the blues Just like fishing in the ocean There'll always be someone new Can't fault those lyrics except perhaps, there's nothing about going hard NC..... 1
Jessamine Posted July 31, 2015 Posted July 31, 2015 Yeah, it kills me. And the one gift he gave me was an iPod, which I was totally inseparable from and now I can't even enjoy. I spent 7 straight hours driving with no reasonable radio stations and still wouldn't use it. The last weekend I spent with him we got drunk and I tried to teach him banjo, and it was hilariously awful, and now I don't even want to play anymore. I just need my life to be as unemotional as possible right now and everything I love seems to cause me pain. Started reading Harry Potter as a distraction, thank goodness the series is so long. And the only "love" scenes are silly teenage crushes and they don't seem relevant enough to spark any tears. Best of luck wth everything.
Learningtowalkagain Posted July 31, 2015 Posted July 31, 2015 "Let the past be the sound, of your feet upon the ground...carry on" That one lyric says it all
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