imtrying211 Posted July 29, 2015 Posted July 29, 2015 I hate when my day starts out this way. Was walking to work in this wonderful NY summer heat, and my ex drives by me. Drives by in the truck that I basically picked out, the truck we bought together for US, the truck that we used to commute to and from work everyday, the truck that his GF won't help pay for because it is something he and I got together. It makes me so angry, hurt, sad.....I don't know anymore what the tears are really for. I so wish he wasn't a part of my world anymore, that I never had to see any sign of him, or see his face again. I'm sure I'd be doing a lot better if that was the case, but I guess that's what you get for dating someone from work. I've been good about avoiding him at work lately, avoiding the small talk I kept subjecting myself to. I've also been keeping my emotions in check, and repeating over and over to myself "it's his lose" whenever I start getting upset, or thinking of him too much. Its been helping too, that and writing out what it really is that I lost when he left, compared to what he lost and chose by going back to his ex. I guess it's just another minor emotional set back for me. It's just so damn unfair that he got to walk away unaffected, no type of set back for him, and moving back to someone that loves him. I know, life isn't fair, but still! I'm so tired of feeling like crap!!!
Ariess10 Posted July 29, 2015 Posted July 29, 2015 I know how you feel , few weeks ago I saw my exs truck at a bar and she still has my business sticker on the back .. I was really up set just over seeing her truck.. Then I started to think about it , why am I gonna give her another min of my time when she has clearly moved on .. A lot of people don't understand why little things hit us the hardest (I for one will never understand ) .. I think it really has to do with just time , eventually all that little stuff will fade .. It's true when you get into a relationship usually one person invests more than the other .. Just gotta tell yourself that's not your life anymore , the things you shared together are gone , it's time to leave the past in the past because it won't do us any good , it's a bad habit to break 1
Unlucky_I_Guess Posted July 29, 2015 Posted July 29, 2015 I can relate. Every day I see or hear something that makes me think of my ex and causes a twinge in my stomach. Lately though it's been happening a tiny bit less, so there's that. 1
Author imtrying211 Posted July 29, 2015 Author Posted July 29, 2015 It's crazy how just objects can have such an impact on emotions. The other day I was looking around my bedroom at all of the stuff we purchased together, from the bed I sleep on by myself every night, other furniture, just stuff I spent too much on to get rid of. Even the damn laundry basket, yes laundry basket, made me think of him! (guess I can always get rid of that lol) It has gotten better though, things don't hit me as hard as they used to. Going places and seeing things that reminded me of him was extremely difficult right after the breakup, but time has definitely helped in those things having less of an effect. Mornings are usually the worst for me though, because even after almost 4 months, the first thought that crosses my mind when I wake up still is that he's gone. So seeing the truck on the way to work always seems to get to me. But then I push past it, like I already have for this occurrence. I just look forward to the day where little things like that don't phase me anymore. I think I've still got a long road ahead of me though......
David87 Posted July 29, 2015 Posted July 29, 2015 Enjoy your single life, sometimes that's all you need.
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