cvann Posted May 5, 2005 Posted May 5, 2005 Well.. I have just come out of sooo much heartache that I don't know where to begin. OK. I was married for 7years to my high school sweetheart/best friend.. we have 2kids together and are now divorced. The marriage was difficult due to an interracial-relationship..his parents were NOT happy and we were just young and still growing, thus we did not make it. He continues to help me at times and I know if I need him he is there for me. NOWW.. he is getting ready to remarry and have a new baby.. I love the idea of the new baby.. but I WISH that the baby was ours. I can not stand his fiancee.. she's only 20..and can not cook, doesn't work, and is NOT in school..I hate the idea of him being IN love with someone else.. but some how I deal with this..ok.. NOW.. since the divorce I was involved with a guy that I had a 3rd child with and he DESTROYED my heart..too much to even explain.. and now he is married..but cannot get over what he has done to me and continues to call me and connect with me..so that issue bothers me sometimes..b/c I thought I was over the hurt.. but I am not. I don't want him back.. I just want to stop hurting.. FINALLYY.. I got into a relationship w/ a guy that is NO good for me..has done some crappy things to me.. he broke up with me.. and WHY THE HELL DO I WANT HIM BACK? I miss him sooo bad that it hurts. I want to text him and tell him that I miss him and I love him.. but he's soo distant and mean to me like I don't exist and I was NEVER anything to him. I talked to him today to ask to borrow something from him.. and he was cool w/it at 1st.. then he just shut down and became very mean to me.. and left me stranded.. I broke down in the store and cried like a baby. I KNOWWW that this is the time for me to find and work on myself.. but my past is weighing on my back. I WANT to be over my ex husband.. I WANT to be over what my baby's father did to me..completely.. and I want to be over this jackass..COMPLETELY..what is wrong with me?
HotCaliGirl Posted May 5, 2005 Posted May 5, 2005 Originally posted by cvann I WANT to be over my ex husband.. I WANT to be over what my baby's father did to me..completely.. and I want to be over this jackass..COMPLETELY..what is wrong with me? Nothing is wrong with you. We all want to get over the people who cause us to hurt. Only time will make you feel better or if you meet someone new. There is no magical solution that I know of. Hurt over 3 guys at once must be extra painful, especially with one marrying and having a baby with a younger woman. Ouch... That was so insensitive how that man treated you in the store. He probably knows you still have feelings for him, so what a jerk he is to hurt you like that. I hope you will feel better.
No Foolin Posted May 5, 2005 Posted May 5, 2005 I bet you kind of feel like your in a cycle. Sometimes we re-create what we haven't finished in the past. The trick is finding out what start the ball rolling for you. No Foolin
Author cvann Posted May 5, 2005 Author Posted May 5, 2005 yes that is soo true. I will take the time to look into that and deal with it.. b/c I am going about things the wrong way..and definitely attracting a**holes!
No Foolin Posted May 5, 2005 Posted May 5, 2005 I would suggest taking time to clear the mind. Solitude is the only ticket to that party. When we are off center like a car with bad alignment, we get what we project. *just an example* If we feel and act like sh*t, we attract sh*t *end of example*. Take time, walk it off for awhile, figure out your patterns, then get back in the game. But its the middle of the night and your on the shack sssssooooo, I would assume your having some pain issues right now. trick is to numb the mind, find something to distract, playstation, computer games, reading, (music and TV are not good). Get your mind right in the morning No Foolin
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