R21 Posted July 7, 2015 Posted July 7, 2015 Hi I am 21 years old have been dating this guy for almost 2 and a half years. He is a year older than me. We started dating when just left school. He is my first love. We come from totally different world. In my house thing work different than in his house. We grew up in different ways. My parent is very strict and his not so much. I fall inlove with him when I was 18 almost 19 years old. We were both silly and did stuped thing and thought it is funny. I thought he is my everything and I am going to marry him one day. He is still studying and I started working after school and I had to grow up beacuase my work didn't allow me stay behind, I work with people who is twice my age and I can't be childish then so I had to grow up and be a grownup in a 19 year old body. It feels like he stayed behind he did't have to grow up and now everything he does is childish in my eyes. He started to iritate me because he says stuped thing, he doesn't think before he say something and it is childish jokes everyday. We went through a lot of dIfficult stuff on our relationship he cheated on me twice in the first year but we sorted everything out and it is behind us now. I can see he really changed he is not the same guy who wants to talk to every girl out there. The last few month thing in my life was really difficult and he was there every step of the way... But I got iritaded because I did have time to deal with everything he never gave me n chance to be alone and just deal with it I am not someone who shows my feelings very easily and I only cry when I am alone. Last night I broke up with him because I wasn't happy the last few months he didn't trust me I can't turn my back then he want to know who is the guy eventhough I didn't have eyes for anyone else but him. He put me in this little box where I was busy running out of oxigen because I am not alowed to do anything he didn't aprove. I wasn't happy anymore and I broke his hart and my hart when I broke up with him. I mis him so much and one day haven't even passed. I just want him to be here with me because I know he is also broken. I don't know what to fo is it normal to feel this way?? Everyone in my live says its better because he wasn't the right guy for me and that breaks me even more even when my parent say it
d0nnivain Posted July 7, 2015 Posted July 7, 2015 The people who are telling you that he was not the right guy for you are correct. He was a great 1st BF but not all young loves last a lifetime. Most don't. Yours didn't. Yes, it hurts. Yes, you will feel odd & lost for a while but eventually the acute pain will tone down & you will be able to heal. Hang in there. For now, take some time & wallow. Perhaps this week but not much longer. Do go to work every day but realize it's OK to be sad. Surround yourself with positive people. Box up all his stuff & give it back. Pack away the momentos. Save the digital photos to a cloud or thumb drive & pack them away too. Then focus on you: take a class, change your hair style, update your living environment, basically embrace the changes.
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