Author SummerSkies Posted August 15, 2015 Author Posted August 15, 2015 (edited) Hey guys, just thought I'd check in with how things are going. So, every week gets better as time passes by. I have my bad days and moments sometimes, but generally I'm doing good. Most of the time I feel back to my normal self and feel content and hopeful. I've been focusing on improving myself and *my* life, and that really helps. Last week I sent him a letter through email, telling him I'm thankful for the time we had, that I do love him and I'm hoping the best for the both of us. It was something I wanted to do for myself. He replied, said he is also thankful for our time together but knew it was right to end the relationship. No contact since. I'm still in love with him, and I do still wish things could have been different, but I'm no longer dwelling on it really... I can feel I'm letting go and not fighting it. It's giving up but in a good way. This is what I've been working toward, because who wants to be stuck? And I can feel I'm getting over the pain from the relationship's actual ending. I'm aware I can still have feelings for him but not feel awful anymore and still get on with my life. Like I already said, I do have my bad moments or bad days still, though those kind of days are getting to be less and less. I can't say that I had an actual "bad day" this week. Sitting here, writing this out right now, I feel... neutral. It's not bringing up feelings of sadness thinking about it. So that's good! Part of me has wondered that if I can make so much emotional progress in a matter of weeks, does that mean I didn't really care or feel deeply? But I know that's definitely not true. I'm certain if I had been in contact with him all this time, I would not be feeling as well as I do now. Through all of this, I have self-soothed by reminding myself this will pass. Edited August 15, 2015 by SummerSkies Added stuff
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