I cannot cope anymore

[whtelightn]

I cannot cope anymore. It is too hard to understand what I am going thru.

I have the triple effect.

 

1. I hate my job and it sucks and Yes I am looking for a new job but right now waiting for call back really is a waiting game.

 

2. My finanical problem is going to get worse in the job I am at. No, I cannot get a loan because my credit is shot. I am barley hanging in there

 

3. It has to do with the ex at work since we work together. I just got the Bday card sent back stating returned to sender and it was written in ink and then states ISA( insufficeint address) when fact she lives with her parents and she is 29. We were talking fine before her bday and she invited me to lunch and I invited me to lunch so I don;t get this bday sending back. I even sent her a letter on how I feel and wonder now if it will be return. I left her a message on the phone about the return and no return call.

 

During the 6 month we were dating it was great and then all of a sudden she just turned cold and her excuse was wants to get a house, car, then boyfriend and then she said she felt pressure by her parents, did not know how to grow and that I am always around and she said do not ever contact her again. I told her Her loss not mine and she fell apart.

THen there was no contact for 3 months till she made contact and then after that she kept making the contact at work and wanting the investigation done on her ex, sharing personal information about her parents with me( yes I met the parents within 3 months who invited me to dinner half the time). She even asked me to come with her to help out with the computer exchange and then she said she will take me with when she goes car shopping and house shopping. I have not pressured her nor called her on the weekends. This was the first I have called her in 11 months in asking if she did move but no call back. Other times we were talking and I was pleasant to her, and when we were dating I treated her like gold. Is she scared of getting too close or what. What did I do wrong. Maybe something I did wrong or is it her.

 

I just dont know what to do anymore. Should I give her the card back at work stating the post office made a mistake or wait till the other letter comes back if it does and just don;t even talk to her anymore. I feel it is a slap in the face.

 

Right now life for me sucks and just don;t want to come out of the black hole. Sometimes I wonder if it is better not to be around this earth anymore. Maybe everybody will be happy.

 

I am in tears alot and everything just seems to cave in right now.

Tom

[slubberdegullion]

1. You'll get another job eventually. I've been there myself, more than once, and sooner or later it's always worked out.

 

2. There are a whole sections in libraries devoted to financial planning, from the fellows like you & I who are just scraping by (if that) to those that are investing millions. Make a plan. Work the plan. Budget. You know the rest.

 

3. Lose the woman. She's either playing you or she's an emotional wreck. Either way, you don't want her in your life. It will hurt, yes, but better to be hurt now for a short time than to be stuck with that type of behaviour for the rest of your life.

 

Good luck!