"If life and love has torn apart,where do the shattered pieces lie?"

[Seducer11]

For those who is not familiar with my story, i'll juz explain the important points, i won't gonna explain in detail..5 years ago i was in a relationship with a girl tat i've truly love..After 9 months of being together, she finally decided to went her own way..I was so sad n heart broken...I was truly madly in love with her..5 yrs passed and i still can't forget the pain n part of me was still waiting for her...In the end i found someone new and we started to be together early this year..After 3 months of relationship i found out tat she's not the girl tat i've truly want. I dislike her attitude of being selfish, arrogant and frequently critisizing others. I decided to break it off and explain to her how i truly felt..So we're finally went on our separate ways.Suddenly in less than a week my ex g.f (The one i'm with 5 yrs ago) called me and told me tat she's having problem with her relationship..I tried to help her as well as cheer her up..She told me tat she loved talking to me and how she missed the times when we're together..Since then she had called me every single nite..Finally we both decided to get back together...I was the most happiest person alive back then..I felt that my life has finally begun..Somehow deep inside of me i knew tat I one day it all gonna fell apart.I knew tat wat we had won't gonna last forever.I knew tat one day my heart will shattered into million of pieces.But at that moment, i was willing to take the risks.I juz wanna be with her no matter wat happened..We ere so happy and everything goes perfectly..We never had a fight n we were always laughing and smiling to each other.But then after a month of being together,we finally had a problem.She stop calling me and when i asked her she said she was very busy..At first i believe her but after awhile my instinct told me tat something is definitely not rite..Then on the 10thof April 2005,my nightmares came true..Once again she decided to let go with the reason tat she can't concentrate on me...I was confused, sad, n heart broken..My feelings was all mixed up..How can the one tat u truly love could hurt you..Pls tell me wat should i do? I can't seem to forget abt her.Should i really give up and never look back.I can't imagine of not being with her anymore..Everytime i think abt how i'm not gonna spent my whole life with her, i felt like my world has collapse..Its true that when she left, she took my life with her.N sometimes i wonder wat should i say IF one day she decided to go back again..Should i accept her after all the pain she caused me??Honestly i'm still hoping tat she would come back to me eventhough i knew it is definitely against the odds...To everyone,pls help me get over this pain...

[loneyBird]

from the way your post is written you seem very young, and believe me...young first loves hurt but you learn from them and grow. If she does not want to spend the rest of her life with you...well....why would you want to be with someone like that anyway??