pippen_2k Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 Ive had a real crappy day today.. been down and depressed all day! My Ex has haunted my thoughts all day and ive just come to the point now where Im saying .. FU*K THIS! Ive wasted a good 4 months of my year in 2005 feeling like a pathetic heart broken loser. This girl has constantly ignored me, contacted me when SHE WANTS TO, played with my heart and emotions, and used me as a Booty Call all to no pervail for me. Im going away for 4 weeks tommorrow and I am not taking my phone with me! She knew I was leaving tomorrow and said that she would catch up with me before I left.. and has she?????? OH OF COURSE NOT! Ive gotten every excuse as to why she is sooo busy.... I initiate everything now and get nothing in return... Why on Earth do I do this? ... I am sooo slow to realise the truth... just looking for any signs of hope... what a fkn waste! I kinda had my hopes up this week that she would visit me... cause she told me she would on Sunday.. always a big downer when they plan somethin with ya and dont follow it through! Im in real pain right now but im really really tired of feeling like this. I hope these 4 weeks away will clear my head, and when I come back I will not contact her anymore! Ive been there for her beckoning for too long and ive given her every opportunity to come back to me... and she still hasnt! Why am I such a victim and sucker for this girl even tho she can treat me like this! All I wanna do is to send her a nasty text message to make her feel guilty, but I dont think im gonna do that.. I asked her to come see me tonight.. but of course she didnt reply to that..... gawd that was a waste of my time! Seriously, Im stopping all my contact, patience and kindness to this girl as I dont wanna waste any more of my life on her. She has crushed me over and over again, but still I have tried to worm my way back to her... NO MORE! If I come back here again and say that Ive tried to get back with her, I give u all permission to call me any name under the sun! Cause I will deserve it! Im sick of this and thanks for listening to my Fury of crap! Im just sick of feeling like this and im finally gonna listen to u guys! Screw Her! I HATE YOU DANIELLE!
simon_uk Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 I am feeling exactly the same way pippen!!!!!! **** Em!!!!!!!!
vickimonster Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 Anger, good for you! Let it out and then let it and her go. You are strong and have all the good stuff in front of you know!
Author pippen_2k Posted April 29, 2005 Author Posted April 29, 2005 I just sent her my goodbyes and told her that Im moving on and cant do this anymore. That was the hardest thing ive ever done, and its got me in tears.. but screw it..Im not doing this anymore.. Its been too long! She wont respond but it dont matter! She knows now... Man this is hard....
vickimonster Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 well done. We are here for you. keep strong.
Author pippen_2k Posted April 29, 2005 Author Posted April 29, 2005 Her response via text message.. ' I feel like ****! You have got me in tears, I am so sorry ' sigh....... looks like this is it... kinda regretin it cause I will never talk to my soul mate ever again.... but oh well.... life goes on.... f*** this..... why did she have to go and hurt somebody like me!
Fallen_Angel Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 You said it yourself: she's crushed you over and over. It hurts to know you've given the best of yourself to someone, yet it still isn't enough. Why bother if she won't reciprocate? Save it for someone more deserving! Anger can be constructive. It just may be the catalyst you need to stay out of contact with her. I hope your trip is relaxing and helps you to heal.
dsm7401 Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 the same thing happen to me with a relationship that ended 2 1/2 months ago, and i say to my self why would a person that you loves and spent 4 years of your life would do something like this, she has no dignity,in a way i fell dumb for saying this but in a way i still love her cause she's been in my life for 4 years, you nor I nor anyone deserves what your saying. i still cant get good sleep i still wake up long before the sun comes up.take your time soon in the long run you'll find out that if that person loved you or cared about you she wouldest be playing a booty call or messing with you feeling, that person is just deeply low. in time she will see what she has done and probably regret it and may come crawling back, but if i were you go out make your self something and just remember the ones that gets left behind fall at first but then gets up very strong and continues to walk taller while the other person is still the same. be proud she cant say you dident try.
ConfusedInOC Posted April 29, 2005 Posted April 29, 2005 Good for you, man. Don't be a doormat. READ MY TAG LINE! It'll help a lot!
Author pippen_2k Posted April 29, 2005 Author Posted April 29, 2005 Thanks for the kind words everyone, they have helped alot! Well im taking off now for a month..with NO PHONE! I really dont need the burdon of it... take care everyone and I hope all ur situations turn out fine
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