kasop Posted June 9, 2015 Posted June 9, 2015 Hey LS. I appreciate all the help ive gotten from this forum sense ive been here. Today is a low day and want to type here instead of bugging my friends more about it or texting my ex. its been a couple months sense b/u. Started nc over again about a week ago. I have come to the realization that she actually left me for another guy. From the bits and peices of info that i have unfortunately and unavoidable received my brain put it all together for me. It would answer alot to what happened. I was in a new kind of low when we broke up. Ive had my good days but mostley bad days it doesnt seem like im moving on. We wernt even together for 2 months. So why do i feel and react so strong to this. Its not like i can just jump into the next persons arms that open up to me because there are none. She was my only actual gf in the last 6 years. Something i have always desired. Its like i was given this precious gift of companionship and had it ripped away as soon as i had it. I know what i did wrong. In all my past r/s' s that i had in hs and right after only ever lasted a couple months. I feel like there is something terribly wrong with me. Why do i care for someone so much that i only spent 2 months of my time with?
Yummm Posted June 9, 2015 Posted June 9, 2015 I feel the same way buddy. It was because you are genuine and had a real connection with her. I met my 'first love' and was only with her for 3 months, yet almost 5 weeks after BU i'm still feeling shattered. Keep NC going and you will heal. 1 week NC isn't long, I recently broke NC after 3 weeks (I was feeling alot better) and it set me back, so now I also feel like $hit. Stay strong and keep posting, we're here. 1
Author kasop Posted June 9, 2015 Author Posted June 9, 2015 Its rough. At first i was thinking hey at least she didnt cheat on me. Now i feel like i got cheated on. And it was a couple months ago.she didnt have the guts to tell me or she didnt care to that she had met someone else and a whole new group of friends that she wanted to be apart of. The first month of nc was rough but i finally thought i was moving on. Then she sends me a text out of the blue blaming me for my bestfriend/her friend for not being her friend anymore. She wanted to make me feel bad and it worked. Back to square 1.
Author kasop Posted June 9, 2015 Author Posted June 9, 2015 I feel the same way buddy. It was because you are genuine and had a real connection with her. I met my 'first love' and was only with her for 3 months, yet almost 5 weeks after BU i'm still feeling shattered. Keep NC going and you will heal. 1 week NC isn't long, I recently broke NC after 3 weeks (I was feeling alot better) and it set me back, so now I also feel like $hit. Stay strong and keep posting, we're here. Thanks for the words. It really feels like you didnt get much of a chance wich only 2-3 montha of a relationship. But i accept it for what it is. Thanks for the reply friend.
dyna85 Posted June 9, 2015 Posted June 9, 2015 Doesn't matter the length of time. Yummm is right. It's about the connection. Strong connections are hard to find, so when you find it and then to lose it so soon, it's heart-wrenching.
Author kasop Posted June 9, 2015 Author Posted June 9, 2015 Doesn't matter the length of time. Yummm is right. It's about the connection. Strong connections are hard to find, so when you find it and then to lose it so soon, it's heart-wrenching. I geuss you are right. We had a strong connection. Same stylye, humor, interests, etc. It was almost too good to be true. Clicked immediately and we were together almost everyday til 2 days before b/u. When she went out and "made new friends"..
DexterLS Posted June 9, 2015 Posted June 9, 2015 Time means nothing. You had real feelings for her and that's why moving on is so hard but you gotta do it. That's the only choice you have. All the best. 1
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