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whats up guys, so here's my tale,

so about a year ago I had volunteer at my aunts day care center for my final high school project prior to graduation. So i was to be there for only 3 weeks, and basically what I did was go into different classrooms and observe how the teachers taught, and occasionally help them out with a lesson. In one of the classrooms, the Kindergarten classroom. There was a beautiful 25 year old girl, she is very nice, had a great personality and I noticed this about her as soon as we meet. She was very nice, and asked me a lot of question about my family, my interest, ect. I didn't have any feelings for her at this time, but i did think of her as a friend. So then my volunteer work ended and I graduated high school. so then i went on a vacation to Greece and Italy for a month. When I got back my aunt asked me to work at the summer camp she ran during the summer months at the school. So i said i would. I was to work for 3 weeks, leading up to when I would leave for college. During this time i was scheduled to work with the my friend in the kindergarten classroom. Now it was during these 3 weeks that I developed my strong feelings for this girl. Our conversations got more in depth, we discussed our families, our interest, how long she has been working at the school, her experiences while working at the school and all of that. I began to feel very attracted to her. Her flawless face, Her personality, Her character, We shared common interest. I have never in my live have found it so easy to have a conversation with someone. She is so easy to talk to. I was about to ask her out, however I found out after friending her on Facebook, that she has had a boyfriend for the past 3 years. I was sad when i found this out because i was convinced that she was the one. I literally felt good just being around her. So anyway, on my last day of work I found my self very sad to leave her. I gave her a hug good bye and embarked on my journey to college. When i left work I still had about 4 days till I left for college. I was very sad at home and could not stop thinking about this girl. So the time finally came that I would leave my home for the college life. Now i had about 4 months till I would be back at the school and reunited with this girl. In college i had trouble interacting with girls, because I had the girl "the teacher" in back my mind the whole time. I would look at a picture of her every night. But i knew i had an obstacle, her boyfriend. I did not know what to do, I figured i would have to win her over. I would have to impress her, pray to god that one day she would dump him for me. That was my dream at least. Now here is what is different about this girl, than every other girl. With other girls my main focus with them was there body, and i fantasized about them in a sexual way. However with the teacher, i was attracted to her mentally, and heres whats different. I am completely ok with never having sex with her. I am literally graced my her presence. I would be cool with just cuddling her, looking her in those absolutely stunning eyes, and knowing she's mine. and i would do that till we were old and gray. and I would be happy just like that, nothing more. So anyway back to the story. So October came around and i was on fall break, which is a 4 day weekend. So I missed this girl terribly so i decided that i would spend my break at the school. So i went back and she was happy to see me again. we talked about my college experience so far and other random things. One thing i did learn about her was that her eyes changed color during the seasons. Between blue and green. I remember asking her to show me so i could see what color they were now. She turned around and gave me this look that i will never forget as long as i live. she turned and gave me the most beautiful little smile, and I could clearly see that her eyes were green lol. So then fall break ended and i went back to college for the month of November. I went back to help my aunt out the last two days before thanksgiving. So i was in preschool this time, not kindergarten. So i was not working with the girl. I stopped by her room after work before we went home. Umm i don't really remember what exactly we talked about but all i know is that is wasn't relevant and it didn't last too long. So anyways fast forward to winter break, now im back home for a whole month and im super excited to be around this girl a lot again just like the summer. However i am not spending the same amount of time as the summer, because i am now working with some irrelevant teacher in the pre k classroom. On the bright side my crush is scheduled to work with me for the last half hour of the day. I learned more about her, and that she has hemophilia, and that she is one of the few women in the state to have it. I also made a promise to her when i get paid to make a donation to the cystic fibrosis foundation, because one of her family member has it. However, I learned that she wants to quit at the end of next summer because she feels she is being under payed, so I go to my aunt to see if there is anything she could do. She said no, and that she didn't look at her the same now, i convinced her to still like her, luckily she didn't get in trouble for it. So then winter break came to an end and i was upset to go back to college and be away from her for 2 months. I go back for a week in march for spring break. we didn't work together this time, i would just stop in at the end of the day and also on break to drop off a bottle of water because she was trying to be healthy :). On my last day there i decided to clean her room for her, its customary for a teacher to do so before leaving for the night. Anyways she was in another classroom talking to someone, so i cleaned her room for her. She appreciated it :). Anyways after that i went back to school, and this is when things get interesting in the story. About a month after leaving, i get a random message on Instagram. Its from her boyfriend, and it basically said to stay away from her. I also see that right after she sends me a group of text messages saying that he has gone through our text, and that he was giving her ****, and that shes sorry. So i call her she said that she was sorry. So I think im all good now that she took my side, most girls would have sided with their boyfriends and would stop talking to the dude. It showed that she at least thought of me as a friend since she stood by my side. A couple days after i decided to text her to see if everything was alright after the incident. she said she was. so then i texted her "that i didn't think it be a good idea to go to the cystic fibrosis because I didn't wanna start drama". Now i was expecting her to say "don't be silly, you can still come". but all i got back in response was "yeah I understand". So that was a blow for me. So anyway fast forward. Its may and i am finally home for the summer, and ready to work for 4 months untill august. So this is where things begin to go downhill for me. The first day back was just as usual, i stopped by her room, we talked about things and that was that. The day before the cystic fibrosis walk, I gave her two purple stuffed animals, and a little prayer card for her family member. She loved it. Then while i was away for memorial day i got her a butterfly neckless with her name on it, she like that as well. She also mentioned that the neckless was blue, which happens to be her favorite colar :). However shortly after i began to notice changes. first and foremost I began to notice that in our conversations she seemed less interested than before. As well has when i was entering her room and take out her trash i noticed she was giving me an "oh thanks", rather than the smile i got before. The past two days have been horrible, I sent her a text showing her the work I did on cleaning one of the sheds and she didn't respond. I even saw her check her phone an she didn't answer, when she usually gives me a reply back :(. So for the rest of the day and the next day I ignored her to give her space, and thats the end of my story. I have work tomorrow and am debating what i should do. Now that you guys know my situation i was hoping i could get feedback. I really care about this girl more than she knows. I would do anything for her. I just wish she liked me back :/. The worst part is that she maybe leaving in a couple weeks and she is defenitley leaving at the end of the summer. So when I go back to college in august I will most likely never see her again :'(. I am not sure what to do. I will probably give this to her right before she leaves, just to show her how much I cared.

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Can't read a wall of text.... :eek::eek::eek:

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Lol, I also tried read and give some opinion but it's too late.

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