Jtizzle Posted April 27, 2005 Posted April 27, 2005 When i was 14(almost 15) and he was 17 we fell in love..we enjoyed each others company, conversation,etc...our relationship was based on trust,love, and communication, not sex...we made a pact that in five years if we were still talking and together we would get married..well its almost five years now.. we broke up a few months after we dated, and had been off and on for about 2yrs. we had lost contact for a good 6 to 9months and during that time he had, had a kid, was engaged to be married, and life just going good for him. me and the ex started talking and catching up in nov.2004 and been talking ever since. when we started talkin again, i had been dating my bf for about a month, and its unfair to him to leave him for an ex, so i stuck it out. while i was with my bf me and the ex talked for hours everynite and said i love u's and all that. my bf was cool with that, because i told him we were only friends, and that i say i love u to him as i would to all of my friends, and he understood that. It was one nite in january when my ex was like u wanna kno why i didnt get married, and i was like yes i am curious...and he said, because he asked his fiancee something about the bible and i guess she said sumthing not to his liking. he said her answer was one of a fool, because she didnt understand how life was. and that of all the chicks he dated in his life that i was the only one who understood HIM and stuff thats in the bible. *his father is a preacher and he's finally seeing the light in God personally* but yea he told me that i was the only girl that could joke, give advice, preach to him about whats in the bible, understand and listen to him and that i was the ONE for him. he would tell me this everytime we talked on the phone, " oh your the one for me, but i dont understand why you want to be with a person like me, why?" that was always a question i couldnt answer then and there. i would give him some bs answer of because i love him and have faith that whatever demons he possess that he can rid of them and do things right in life and be better WITH MY HELP and that i love him. for the past few months leading up to now, he would tell me im so real and that im the one, but he dont know why im with him still (friendwise), and that im the only positive thing in his life besides his son.... Now tonite, me and him had a deep conversation because we aint really talked long and caught up with each other for a good month (because we have both been workin crazy)...but yea we talked a good one tonite, and i FINALLY realized that this is not the man i want to marry as i had thought i did a few months ago. I love him dont get me wrong, but its in a way that is so much more of a husband or lover... its like i want to be the positive in his negative life, i want to be the reason he is on top of the game,but not that way though. kind of like a sidekick like boo boo is to yogi... i came to this conclusion while concludin the conversation, i told him to cheer up and that i love him..he said he loved me too, but i guess it was just the way he said it to me...didnt sound like it came from his heart, like he was forced to say it or something...and then and there i finally realized that as much i want it to work out for us, it wont...and i dont need nobody that feels obligated to say that to me..besides that, i guess it was the things we talked about, his mishaps in life, his son, the streets...we are at different points in our lives, im prissy as he says (because i stay n plano tx which is like a rich city) and he's at the lower end..i dont mind the money/where we stay bizz...we just on different pages..no scratch that..more like different novels... he's thinkin that he's missed his chance to go to college, thinkin hes stuck at a job he doesnt like,etc...all because he had a kid at 19 (he doesnt want to miss out on anything that his son does, which is why he feels he's missin out on life)...when he said that..it made me see that i dont need that type of person in my tight knit circle..because my mother dropped out of school at 17 to have me..got GED,went to college and got 2 degrees, all this while she had me..she said i gave her INCENTIVE to do better in life and that if she didnt have me she would be dead..and him having a kid should give him incentive to do just as my mother did..and i cant be with somebody that doesnt want to succeed so to say... but yes i finally came to my senses that i do not love this man like i thought i did and actually falling out of love is as great as falling IN love... [color=blue]Question out there to you all...at what point did u finally get over a love, and what opened your eyes? [/color]
BrotherAaron Posted April 28, 2005 Posted April 28, 2005 She was driving me crazy, parading her new BF around in front of me, and I thought that I was in the worst spot of my life. Then my best friend came down, and we went out and had the most amazing weekend. We met a whole crowd of people in which I instantly felt like I belonged, and had women begging me to take their phone numbers. I was happier than I had been in a long, long time... and it had nothing to do with her. Since then, I've realized that there is nobody that can make me happier than myself... and, if I find someone that can, that is the person that I am going to marry. My ex is not that person.
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