Should I try to bring it back? And if yes, how so? (Warning: Long story)

[LegendCry]

Before I start, just wanna make sure you know that I'm 16, now let's get to the story (It's kinda long):

I went on a date with this girl, tall, cute blonde with beautiful blue eyes, Emma was her name. My friend forgot to give me a gift for my birthday so he introduced me to her. We went out to the cinema and saw a nice, romantic movie, everyone liked it. Other than the two of us, there were my 2 friends there both with their girlfriends, so it was a triple date. We kissed, and to be honest i was very close to ****ing up with her, but hey, i had luck. I was always jealous at my friend Nick since he was a relatively poor ******* who was so dumb he couldn't even talk properly (not kidding), he never brushed his teeth and was, and still is, quite ugly, the only good thing about him was that he played handball and football (soccer). The thing i was jealous about was Heather, his girlfriend who was perfect in every way, but we'll get to her later on. There was also this other dude (he is the guy who introduced me to the blonde) called Boris. Boris was a fat, rich kid with long hair, he was a complete and utter *******. You must ask yourself why i was friends with people like this, well, something about them being *******s made me drawn to being friends with them, never liked the quiet, calm ones, and i was known for being the only non-*******s in the group. Boris was also there with his girlfriend Jenny. Just like us, the three of them were close friends.

Now that i got all the characters down, time to get to the real stuff. Even though i was there for Emma, and i liked her a lot, the way Heather looked at me that night was just... you might think I'm too young for that, or i don't know what i'm talking about, but the way she looked at me and talked to me, i fell in love within minutes. Everyone noticed it and Nick was pissed. A couple of days later Emma suddenly broke up with me and i never saw her again, but Heather also broke up with Nick, for reasons unknown to me yet he wouldn't talk to me, he looked at me with despise. Not so long afterwards I had a 5 hour conversation with Heather (on Facebook) and we bonded. We went to Boris' place not so far from Heather's house and there we hooked up. I have had 4 girlfriends in total (Emma-for a couple of days, Anya-for 2 months, Heather-you'll see and Martina-a couple of weeks) and none of those girlfriends could compare to Heather. The next two weeks after the hookup we would text each other at least 11 hours a day, we would stay up late and text, she would wake me up early so we can text and it was awesome. We lived kinda far from each other, but it was not that far, a 20 minute ride so we only saw each other once every two days because we couldn't drive cars and via bus/taxi was way too unreliable. It was perfect and we were even going to have sex in the first week, but her parents grounded her for a couple of bad grades in school (she was an outstanding student though) and she wasn't allowed to go outside. And then, on one day, suddenly it all went to ****. Without any clues, in the matter of hours her mood changed and she stopped texting me completely. I was worried sick but promised my friends i'll go out with them that night, and i did. When i arrived at the gathering, i saw Boris looking at me with an evil smile, Nick started talking to me again and i had no idea what was going on. After a couple of shots of rakija (like vodka, only stronger, traditional Serbian drink, yeah i live in Serbia and all of these names are made up, also people here start drinking usually when they are 12, or don't drink at all, there is no middle) i got kinda drunk, not a lot, but just enough to be easily provoked. Boris came up to me and said: "Hey, you know that Heather has met someone else?" knowing that i had no idea. I was very surprised, time around me slowed down and i could hear my heart beat, all the alcohol perished out of me and I was as sober as you can be, i whispered: "What?" and he started laughing his pants off. I remembered all the things they did to Nick when she broke up with him, all the humiliation and i knew i couldn't bear that, so i decided to act like it was nothing. I grabbed him and said: "What did you say?", he repeated himself and coldblooded, i said: "Yeah, i don't care" then looked at his hand, he was holding his phone up like he wanted to record me, i told him: "She's on the phone, right?". His smile turned into a worried face saying: "What, how did you know, that's cold dude", i repeated "I... Don't... Care!" and walked away, continuing to drink... that was the last i heard from her, the next morning i realized i sent a drunk message to her and made sure she knew that, she didn't mind it even though it had some insults in there, but more compliments and still refused to talk about the fact that she broke up with me, over Boris...

I spent the next 8 months angry at her, trying to hook up with someone else, but i couldn't. As i said above I did eventually hooked up with another girl, but just for a couple of weeks, that was in between the time period in which i hated her, and loved her again. Yes, that's right, after 8 months i fell in love again, in that period we sent about 20 texts talking about things that had nothing to do with the previous events, and she seemed like she forgot it all, she was nice and everything. Not it's been a year and I still can't form a bond with anyone, i think about her from time to time and when i do, i realize she was the perfect girl, which only beats me up even more, yes, she was pretty, very smart, knew 3 languages (and was 16), she was a gamer and a rock/rap/metal fan (just like me), i have never had so much in common with anyone before and i despise myself for loosing a girl like that...

So now you know what happened, i'd love to hear your thoughts on this, if anyone has read this thing, it's long, sorry about that...