FistOfTheNorthStar Posted June 2, 2015 Posted June 2, 2015 So today was a thinking day. It wasn't too bad and although I don't feel pain I know some things hurt me. Like when I saw her again after initiating NC I saw how quickly she had gotten collared by her now Master (she left me for her BDSM lifestyle). When I sit down and think about it, it hurt me that she never cried for me but cried for him. Like although she had told me she was madly in love with me and there was no way she would ever leave me unless I left her( the irony -_-) it still in a way bothers me. I blocked her every single way and deactivated my Facebook because it would be wayyyy too painful to go back and delete all of the love posts between us as well as all of the pictures we took of us being happy even of her child loving me so much. I am scheduling a session with a therapist. Don't get me wrong, I do not want anything to do with them anymore and wish the pain would just go away. Just wanted to hear some input or if anyone has gone through something similar. Thanks -F
iceteaguy Posted June 2, 2015 Posted June 2, 2015 You're doing the right thing, your situation from what I have seen in recent post was a 9 month relationship and you loved her but her life style wasnt your cup of tea. Its good you made the decision to get a bit more support then what we can give you on this forum. Its a right step in the right direction.
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