asjl Posted April 25, 2005 Posted April 25, 2005 after 3 and a half yrs i still dont know where its headed. we break up-get back together. mostly i end it, either because he was distant or i was just unhappy. we share a son, so no contact is almost impossible. i love him and care about him, but not as much as i used to. a month ago when i ended it he wanted to look for a place together and get married eventually. after i took him back, he didnt seem too eager to find a place. he says he loves me, but sometimes i wonder if it is just physical. he only spends time with me when he wants to. if i ask to spend time with him, he has excuses. we are currently friends, but dating, with the ability to date others, as i suggested, yet, he still calls me honey and tells me he loves me. he is actually giving up a weekend night to spend with me for my birthday. am i just being selfish in expecting him to spend more time with me? he doesnt even look at other women. i want him to love me the way he once did. but so much damage has been done, i dont know if thats possible?
Vampiress Posted April 26, 2005 Posted April 26, 2005 we as women deserve the world when we bear a man's child they should give them the world and their children deserve everything. I think that women never ask for too much when its just respect, honesty, love, and happiness. We as women return all that and so much more, I think that some men don't know what they have until they don't have it but they take advantage of us by coming and going as they please. because for some reason our relationships have to be the way they want them to be. For us to not be with anyone when they find someone else. We do have to wait and not see anybody. For some reason we do and we take them back, for love? Well for what we hope can be one day love. Thats why i think we do for the idea that one day we can be loved by them. Truly LOVED.
Author asjl Posted April 26, 2005 Author Posted April 26, 2005 thank you for the response. i really want to let him see what he would be missing by no contact, but i start to miss him and give in. he knows this. i dont want to end it, but i dont want to continue this way. i constantly wish he could be the loving person he once was. thats y i wish i could do the you dont know what u got until its gone by walking away and let him come back to me. im just not strong enough i guess.
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