Two months no contact

[Ariess10]

long story short , I was in a relationship for 3 years, we broke up two months ago and I went nc right away, helps that she doesn't try to contact me either.. She has a very very controlling mother, her mom pretty much runs her. Her mom hates her self and everything around her so naturally she hated me. Oh and the phone calls , her mom would call her 150 times a day .. Well I put up with this for 3 years the mental abuse and whatever else she would throw my way.. I thought I could keep what we had separate . Well I was wrong , my ex started looking into a place across the street from her mom , we lived in apt so anyways I told her if you buy this place I am leaving, (now I would have went in on a house if it was 20 miles away from her mom where I didn't have to see her every morning ).. she would say to that "I know you'll come with me because you love me" well she ended up buying this place .. There was no way I was gonna move across the street from that woman, so I left..

 

 

My ex never stuck up for me when it came to her mom, your probably wondering why my ex puts up with it? Well they run a business together and her mom holds it over her head everyday , god forbid she doesn't do something she likes "I'll sell the business " sad really at 32 years old I never thought I would have to put up with a crazy mother.. Even tho all her friends including my ex warned me about her. Before meeting her lol.. I'm proud of myself that I left, simply because a couple nights before I decided to leave I stayed up for hours just watching her sleep , going over and over in my head the pain I know would come if I left. The hurt and emptiness I would feel.. But I did it because I finally thought of me for once..

 

She asked me to stay but I couldn't , every time she. Talked about this new place I wanted to scream, she always asked why I couldn't be happy for "us" and the new place .. I told her how can I be happy for something that I know is gonna ruin us..? But anyways I just miss what we had but I know now what I thought of our relationship in my head, wasn't what it was in reality..it was doomed from the start .. Just sad when you have to give up everything you have knowin for 3 years and start all alone by yourself .. I have my good days and my bad days , I'm in therapy , I work out a lot have lost 30 lbs in two months .. I can feel myself getting better very slowly, but the hardest part are the little things that remind me of her .. The thought of her being with a someone else , but I can't control that and what she does now is no business of mine .. But doesn't mean it still won't hurt .. The mom will always find something wrong with whoever she dates .. Happened to the last bf also..