PMeintjes Posted May 24, 2015 Posted May 24, 2015 Let me tell you my story. I was in hospital last year(2014),from October to December with Malaria and Meningitis.Touch and go a few times.There was a woman who helped me recover.I was an emotional mess.She stood by me and we became closer than family.She also has a hard time.She is going through a divorce and a lot of other things.We helped and supported each other and something was happening.We were around each other 24/7 for 6 months,had a lot in common and fell in love.We were in a "relationship" for 2 weeks,just kissing,talking about our feelings for each other and the feelings grew stronger every day. She asked me a lot about my feelings for her,what do I see in her,etc.Now that I think about it she was worried I would get tired of her. Because here's the catch:She's 46.I'm 22.A 24 year difference between us. I had feelings for her for almost 5 months.I prayed,I cursed,I tried to fight it but I fell for her.HARD.Everything about her I loved.Her jokes,her laugh,her temper,her body-she never had children and has a very sexy body for her age-,the way she could calm me down,everything.I have anger issues and I am a big muscular guy so I was always afraid of hurting someone if I lose it.She could calm me down just by looking at me,something no one else could ever have done.Not friends,family,medication,activities,nothing.Last week we talked and decided to give us a try.I looked past everything,the age difference,money,EVERYTHING.I loved her for the person she was.I've seen her cry,smile,angry,sad,I know her deepest fears and secrets.She went home on Wednesday last week,told me on Sunday that there will never be anything between us.There's someone else.A man she knew for 10 years.who's older than she is and who is also going through a divorce and who stood by her when her husband left 1 year ago.She said the "feelings between them are VERY strong".What am I?I'm young,strong,intelligent,good looking and I am not an ass.I wanted to treat her like a princess.I helped her with everything.Cooking,cleaning,anything that I could helped with I did.All the while working my %^%$ off on the farm.I never thought we would be together forever.But I loved her enough that I would have settled for a year or 10. Am I crazy?I really loved her.I would have done anything for her.Now I sit here and cannot breathe,the panic inside me is growing,the thought of her having sex with another is tearing me apart.She wants us to remain friends.She still needs our family's help.I will have to face her again. I'm so confused.Any imput is welcomed. Thank you.
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