ChangSyam Posted May 23, 2015 Posted May 23, 2015 Im new to this forum . Im sorry that right after I registered , I post right away . It just I really need to get all whats inside me off . Well , my ex and I have been together for a wonderful 2 years of relationship . I bet with my life that we were meant for each other . We were so amazing together when people saw us they get jealous of how close we were . But we have different religions . Mind you I live in Malaysia which the country have more than 1 religion . We were perfect until her family intervened . They asked me to break up with her which I did since her family are very close to her . They dont have their parents anymore . I cant stand to see her living without her family . And truthfully , I chickened out . I was scared of going against her family . 5 months after our break ups , I contacted her back , and found out that shes moving on . She had sex with 1 guy during the break up . When I asked her if she still loves me she said she did , but in my mind if the girl loves you enough , she will never let another guy touch her . So we argued and I decided to completely write her off from my life . But right now I am having a hard time to deal with my broken heart . Every single second when Im free , all I think is her , how shes doing , is she thinking about me right now , d thought of her and d guy having sex , our memories , and most importantly , how she loves and cares for me . I feel like dying . Everytime Im alone , I feel like crying . I just dont know what to do . I tried to fill up my free time with new hobbies , but the thoughts just keep on coming . I cant move on like this . Before im with her , Im an ******* . I broke so many girls heart its even uncountable for me . But after I met her , I finally believe in true love . But now im not so sure . I will probably just stay single for the rest of my life . Because Im so scared to find someone half as good as her . Sorry for the long question . It just I need someone to talk . I dont want my friends and family knows that Im weak . Everyday I just have to fake smiles in front of them when deep inside Im actually dying . Its so hard to be in this situation . I just wanna move on so bad now . Sorry for my bad english
Satu Posted May 23, 2015 Posted May 23, 2015 Let yourself fall into your own arms. Only you can heal yourself. Only you can 'love yourself better.' Forget other people and remember yourself. All the healing resources are on the inside. Good luck.
Author ChangSyam Posted May 24, 2015 Author Posted May 24, 2015 I broke NC today after 3 weeks . I wanted to see if I still have a shot with her . So I asked her one last time whether she wants to be with me or not . And I gave her time to think about it . But Im not hoping anymore . I'll just leave it to faith and let things decided on its own . If it happens , then it happens . If it dont , then I'll back off and move on with my life .
sober and dry Posted May 25, 2015 Posted May 25, 2015 (edited) ChangSyam I'm sorry to say but I don't think you should have done it... Think about it properly... If she wanted to have you back what was stopping her from doing that? Even more, if she wants to have you back how much time will she need to realize just that? You are clearly in denial/barging stage. Edited May 25, 2015 by sober and dry
Author ChangSyam Posted June 19, 2015 Author Posted June 19, 2015 Thanks for the advices guys ! Even tho its not a lot but it means a lot to me . I finally got over her . NC really did wonders to you . For all the guys out there that got dumped , go NC . Its really magical what it can do for you . Best of lucks xoxo
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