j_mysterio Posted May 19, 2015 Posted May 19, 2015 Our Last Encounter: We hung out all night and made out (she had a bf, she said she had no feeling for him, not like she does for me). Upon waking up the next day, I called her and she said she told her boyfriend about us making out and "We cant talk anymore". We hung up, that was about 2 weeks ago. Today I tried to contact her just to talk as friends and realized I am blocked, I miss laughing with her... no romantic feelings involved, just wanted to hear her voice and laugh a little I feel like I'm having a bit of a relapse today... maybe its because her cousin got a hold of me this morning and asked how I was doing. I honestly was doing great. Now, Im feeling down and a slight depression. I am fine... all my friends are busy and I have nothing to do. I just miss her. I know this feeling is temporary but the emotions coming back have me asking myself stupid questions like is she missing me? Does she have these urges? I mean yeah like every other day I'll see something or hear something and think of her but the feeling is stronger than usual today. I dont know what it is. I thought this feeling was over. Part of me wishes it wouldve went down in flames. Her telling me to fnck off and die, burn in hell, lol but it didnt. She didnt say 1 mean thing or act like a b!tch... and sounded almost as if someone had a gun to her head on the phone forcing her to say "we cant talk anymore" or "I cant talk to you anymore" I cant clearly remember. Like a robot. I'm just venting to get it out there... like I said, I didnt think I'd feel like this again so figured I'd put it all out there and hopefully get some feedback.
aloneinaz Posted May 19, 2015 Posted May 19, 2015 Ssoo, what's the take home value from this? She told you she can't talk to you anymore. Don't be a door mat that she can walk all over. How sweet for her ego. She has her new boyfriend's attention and love AND her ex's. So, she has her cake and eats it too. What I'd do is IGNORE her (if she contacts you) and vanish from her life. Move forward to finding someone else. Going in/out of the drama w/your ex isn't good for you. 1
NoLeafClover Posted May 20, 2015 Posted May 20, 2015 If you had manners and possibly some dignity for yourself you would know you don't mess with another man's woman. Whether she was willing, begging or paying you naked on the sofa.. you simple should know better to do that. Things like that have gotten people shot. Leave her alone she doesn't want to talk to you and clearly has made a choice to be with her bf still. You got played and now you are left dry.. don't put yourself in that situation. Our Last Encounter: We hung out all night and made out (she had a bf, she said she had no feeling for him, not like she does for me). Upon waking up the next day, I called her and she said she told her boyfriend about us making out and "We cant talk anymore". We hung up, that was about 2 weeks ago. Today I tried to contact her just to talk as friends and realized I am blocked, I miss laughing with her... no romantic feelings involved, just wanted to hear her voice and laugh a little I feel like I'm having a bit of a relapse today... maybe its because her cousin got a hold of me this morning and asked how I was doing. I honestly was doing great. Now, Im feeling down and a slight depression. I am fine... all my friends are busy and I have nothing to do. I just miss her. I know this feeling is temporary but the emotions coming back have me asking myself stupid questions like is she missing me? Does she have these urges? I mean yeah like every other day I'll see something or hear something and think of her but the feeling is stronger than usual today. I dont know what it is. I thought this feeling was over. Part of me wishes it wouldve went down in flames. Her telling me to fnck off and die, burn in hell, lol but it didnt. She didnt say 1 mean thing or act like a b!tch... and sounded almost as if someone had a gun to her head on the phone forcing her to say "we cant talk anymore" or "I cant talk to you anymore" I cant clearly remember. Like a robot. I'm just venting to get it out there... like I said, I didnt think I'd feel like this again so figured I'd put it all out there and hopefully get some feedback. 3
Satu Posted May 20, 2015 Posted May 20, 2015 From my journal, quoted as relevant: You chose to have her as the exact centre of your universe. You were in orbit around her. Then she was gone, and you had nothing to orbit. Now you have to place the centre of your universe inside yourself. Once you have done that, the empty place inside you will no longer be empty, and you will begin to enjoy life again. . . . . . . . . She's not the solution. You are. 2
I_Give_Up67 Posted May 20, 2015 Posted May 20, 2015 Hey man, whatever happened with the cutie that you worked with? The only way you will ever move on and get over her, is to meet someone new.
Author j_mysterio Posted May 20, 2015 Author Posted May 20, 2015 NoLeafClover... yeah I know all that. Lol thanks for your blunt input. I was just feeling low earlier... Im good. Just throwing it all out there... cleansing myself... getting the fncking toxins out of my brain. I write things on here even if they arent my TRUE feelings... just what I'm feeling in the moment... even if in that moment I know theyre wrong.
Author j_mysterio Posted May 20, 2015 Author Posted May 20, 2015 Satu... I really liked the journal quote!! And Igiveup.... I'm still talking to her... I'm not giving up. I am trying to free myself from all the negative emotions I have lingering around in me... hopefully its working lol 1
Author j_mysterio Posted May 20, 2015 Author Posted May 20, 2015 And Noleafclover... you should def stay away from infidelity and the other woman/man section of this website. you might have a heart attack. lol
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