cottom Posted May 14, 2015 Posted May 14, 2015 Im 22 and I have never really been alone, im just letting out my love story of my life and where it has gotten me now, im so down on confidence i just want some reassurance... I always had mates and family around me then i got my first girlfriend at 17, she added me on facebook and it went from chatting on that to meeting to a relationship, i went to university but lived at home for her. We were together for 1 and a half years then 4 months into my uni course we broke up. I was sad of course but then a girl added me on blackberry messenger, we got chatting and hooked up and we were in a relationship for 2 months. We ended it then but i wasnt that upset because i didnt invest that much effort in. I went in to work later that day and there was this new girl that started that was stunning. Apparently she had been told not to mess with me because i was a smooth talker and would play her, thats what i did. Start texting her that day and eventually we got together and were together for 2 years. We broke up in the January when she had been in uni for 4 months because she met someone else she got feelings for and i went on a cold streak, i couldnt pull for about a month in the clubs, but then i managed to get with a girl i previously knew and from there i was managing to get with girls each time i went out. I started hanging with more mates and met a girl through them that i fell for, we ended up getting together and were together for a year and a half, after a year i got a new job and started working away in another town during the week and seeing her the weekend. On my birthday last year i found a text on her phone, thinking id be a nice bf and answer her phone and pass the message on and found out she had been seeing another guy for 2 months. We broke up their and then, the next day i started speaking to a girl on facebook and we met up straight away and we moved together pretty quickly, she wasnt my type but she helped me forget about the cheating. We broke up after 2 months because work was getting to me and i became distant and our sex life was non existant, i found out from a friend she had gone to visit her friend at uni and kissed a guy in a club. I started meeting the ex that cheated on me because she was desperate for me back she said, we would hook up for sex and then watch a film but in secret. But then i was away with work, i asked what shes up to, she said in bed, then my mate sent a photo of her all over a guy she said was a mate in a club. I knocked her off there and then. I then had a girl pop up to me on facebook and she thought i was one of the funniest guy she ever met. We met and started seeing each other, but then i started getting the last 2 exes begging me back which this girl took as me not being over them and it pushed her back, so we stopped speaking. Since then i have had no problem talking to girls, i can chat to them over facebook or text but then when i meet them up im dry and dont really engage them in a conversation and struggle to talk with confidence. I can go to clubs and have girls throw themselves at me, i constantly have girls message me that im gorgeous and in the street girls tell me im the best looking guy theyve seen but ive never know what to reply to that. I went on a date with a girl i chatted to in the gym for a month but i lost all my timings, we got drunk and kissed but she seems to have gone a little cold on me since and all i can think is its all my fault that i took a girl that seemed so hot for me (though i dont think she was in the first place) and turned her cold. I cant talk to girls, i dont know what to say. I feel ugly lately and fat, ive just moved to a new area and the only kids that have bothered are just users and pr*cks who i will ditch the second i leave. Im in the gym 5-6 days a week trying to make new friends but everyones so consumed in their own routine nobody wants to talk etc. Ive been single AND moved into my own place 5 months ago now and its the longest ive ever gone without a girl, i have no sexual motivation anymore, not even to touch myself too i just feel depressed.
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