Resident1fan Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 I live a messed up life. First off I am 24 years of age in college studying culinary arts. In high school I wanted to be popular so much but I was the cast away. Now in college I wanted to keep a low profile and NOT be popular but as things turn out, I am cause everyone talks to me. See I should tell you that I have a very unique condition, the skin on my fingers peel DRASTICALLY, so I pick and bite them till they turn red and even sometimes bleed. The messed up part is that no one (not even my doc) knows what it is. I also have a brown birthmark on my forehead so I keep my bangs long to cover it but I'm starting to go bald now and its going to suck when I start getting the dot head remarks. All these things lead to a low self confidence, and its going to cost me my degree, (I cant pass english). I cant function at 100% my job cause my lack of confidence impairs me. I cant talk to anyone with out feeling anxiety, let alone talk to girls, out of the last 3 women i have asked out all turned me down, So I live a very lonely life. TLDR:messed up bloody fingers, birthmark on forehead and social anxiety, are all demons that I live with and there slowly destroying my life. I guess I'm just ranting and/or asking for help. Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 If everyone talks to you, then you are ahead of the game. Try to stop biting your fingers. Get some therapy or at least read books on increasing your confidence. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Lokin4AReason Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 keep cool ( its called a hiccup in life ) and its not the end ... ( not your time, probably in a 100 yrs or so ); 1st of all, stop picking, peeling, biting, or whatever else you do w/ your finger(s) ... 2nd, can you use glove(s) ... ? 3rd, let it go. people will always talk ( esp. if they do not understand ) 4th on the list, your in college. be in college and live it. go to parties and experiment. meet new people or pick up a hobby =0) 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Resident1fan Posted May 13, 2015 Author Share Posted May 13, 2015 I have been picking since birth. Its VERY hard, if not impossible to stop, i even was prescribed a steroid lotion by my doc to no avail. It looks disgusting and its just a difficult hell to live with. It really messed me up. I get more bitter with age, cause i realize how much life sucks more everyday. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
preraph Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 You need behavior modification to stop the habit you've formed. That's all it is, a habit. See a therapist for behavior modification about it. Meanwhile, you need to be a man and make yourself try to stop doing it. It's no different than smoking or some other addiction. You have to stop it whether it feels good to stop it or not. You probably started doing it for comfort. Agree with yourself to experience the discomfort and stop doing it. Wear gloves as much as possible, and certainly wear them to bed at night. You can buy thin comfortable cotton gloves in the drugstore first aid section. If you have not been to a dermatologist, then your parents were not doing their job. So be sure to see a dermatologist. Not just a regular doctor. And that mark on your forehead can either be removed (by the dermatologist possibly even real easily by freezing which is painless) or covered up with concealer makeup. I have had a growth of some kind removed with the freezing before. It was great and didn't cost that much. The main thing you need to do is make up your mind to do whatever it takes to stop. Your fingers would not be bleeding if you weren't biting them. If the dermatologist doesn't know what the peeling is, then you probably caused that by the early biting on them. If they do, then they can fix it. So set your mind to stop this and go get help from the dermatologist. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Satu Posted May 13, 2015 Share Posted May 13, 2015 I used to bite my nails until they bled, but I haven't done so for years. Thats proof that deep-seated habits can be changed. Look into Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. All the best, Satu. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Resident1fan Posted May 14, 2015 Author Share Posted May 14, 2015 What kind of life do I live? the emptiness inside hurts beyond belief, i know im doomed for a lonely life, whenever im around my guy co workers or guy friends, they always only talk about sex and i have not been laid in over 2 years, and that always make me feel like less of a man and a waste of a life. The best thing a man can have in life is sex. And ill never have it again, ill always be a lonely loser. Im so depressed. Link to post Share on other sites
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