xZShootZx Posted May 12, 2015 Posted May 12, 2015 (edited) I'm a senior in high school, and at the beginning of the year, I saw this girl in my art class that I really started to like. She, to me, is the definition of "beautiful" like shes all I think about it. I honestly think she's the most beautiful girl in the entire world. Around the beginning of the year, sometimes she was in school, sometimes she wasn't, and thats because she suffers from Depression, like me. We've never even talked by the way. Anyways when she came back, I had to ask her out. I'm horrible with girls, like every girl I've ever had an interest in, either didn't like me back, or just stopped responding to my texts. Plus, I lack the self confidence due to this reason. Anyways before a few days before Christmas eve, I went up to her and said "Hey, I know we don't really talk and you don't really know me but I'm Andre, and I just want to say, I think you're insanely beautiful, and I was wondering if over the break, if you wanted to hang out or something?" She said "Awwww thanks, and sure i'll give you my number." She gave me her number, and instantly, I was like "Wow, that went amazingly lol". So a few days into winter break, and we are texting. The first day I text her, she didn't respond at all, so the next day, I DM'd her on instagram asking if this was her number. She said it was, and she said to text her again. She finally replied, and we're talking (kinda.) A few days pass and i'm texting her everyday first. On Christmas, I wished her a Merry Christmas and all, and she said the same to me. Anyways, sometimes she replied back, other times she didn't, and she said it was because she was "bad" at texting. A few days pass and I asked her if I was annoying her or not, because like I said, i'm horrible with girls, and I wanted to be sure I wasn't annoying her. She said I wasn't. One day I ask her if she could hang out or not, but she find out. The next day I asked her if founded out if she could hang or not, and she said "I can't...surprisingly because i'm never busy, I'm sorry! :(" and I said "its okay :)". I have trust issues with girls, and I had a feeling she was lying to me. So when we go back to school, she wouldn't say hi to me in the hallways or class at all. I tried to text her but she wouldn't respond back, so I kind of got the message that she wasn't interested. My depression got worse, and I was having thoughts of suicide because I really liked this girl, A LOT! It's been almost 5 months and I still can't get over her. I talked it over with my therapist, and she thinks I did nothing wrong, yet at the same time, I have to move on because I barely knew this girl and I created this "fantasy" thinking that we were going to date....shes right though. However, I was over her for a month or so, then I started to like her again. I still like her a lot, and I can't get over her. I want to talk to her again but at the same time, I can't because she's gonna do the same thing to me again. I can't help but feel that sometimes, it's my fault, since I asked out a girl that I didn't talk to at all, and the fact that I asked her if I was annoying her or not. Every day is a struggle for me, cause I have to see her in class every day. I remember saying to myself that I was "in love with her" but my friend said that in order to feel that way, it has to be mutual. I don't know whats worse, the fact that we didn't even date, or how I can't get over her. I like her so much, and I want to know what I did wrong, but at the same time, if I find out what I did wrong, it's gonna make me feel more depressed. I honestly just can't get over her, no matter how much I try. She is honestly to me, the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my entire life. I need help, i don't know what to do anymore Edited May 12, 2015 by xZShootZx
d0nnivain Posted May 12, 2015 Posted May 12, 2015 When you graduate from high school & move on to the next phase you will find a girl even more beautiful who loves you back. I know what you are feeling is intense but you will get over her.
Author xZShootZx Posted May 12, 2015 Author Posted May 12, 2015 When you graduate from high school & move on to the next phase you will find a girl even more beautiful who loves you back. I know what you are feeling is intense but you will get over her. I have a feeling that I won't though i've been through a lot of heart breaks throughout my teenage life, but I was able to move on, but this seems impossible to me since its been almost 5 months. Its going to kill me more that I probably won't ever see her again after I graduate and that she'll probably be with someone else
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