today has been hard...

[sxbmb3388]

Been fighting breaking NC- been in NC for 6 months now. I really wanted to look on his social media at his pictures. i know theres no point, so i wont do it, but i have really wanted to today which has been extremely random.

 

i just don't want to hinder any progress i have made these past 9 months!

 

i know that its time for me to move on now, i mean in my life situation. I want a new job, travel the world and live on my own.

 

i keep writing down and looking back, seeing how far i have come, and that is the thing stopping me looking at his online profiles.

 

keep trooping, troopers, the best is yet to come, even though it may not feel like it sometimes...

[Methodical]

Each time you are tempted and overcome it, you get a little bit stronger, you empower yourself a little bit more... You may not realize this while it's happening, but you will when you look back and reflect, as you have stated. Stay strong!

[sxbmb3388]

Each time you are tempted and overcome it, you get a little bit stronger, you empower yourself a little bit more... You may not realize this while it's happening, but you will when you look back and reflect, as you have stated. Stay strong!

 

Thanks, i needed that.

 

I havent had the urge to do this since I started NC. i think its because I'm making new changes to my life, and i guess a part of me has been thinking about my life with my ex.

 

because we were together for so long 5+ years, I know its normal, and emotion is my brain healing through this, but yeah its flipping hard sometimes!

 

one thing ive noticed, since he changed so drastically, i only have thought of the way he was before i stopped recognising him, which is a good thing. I would never be with the person he is now.

 

one thing as well is becuase he hasn't spoken to his best friend in 7 months either, and his best friend is down about it and seems to only vent that to me!

 

thanks for your message, i know im doing the right thing.