Advice needed...

[Ty]

ok.. My ex and I broke up about a month and a half ago. She broke up with me because she needed space and independence.. to find herself so to speak.. so i call her the first few days we are broken up and she tells me the same thing.. she wanted to just be alone, be with friends, have the college experiance.. So I went No contact.. she has calls about weekly. Her friend told me she still likes me alot. She calls yesterday and we talk for about 2 hours.. I told her how happy i was now.. changes I had made in my life.. that it was a good thing we broke up because we both needed to be on our own for a bit.. She was saying things like "you haven't sounded this great since we first started going out." She also had alot of things happen to her in the later part of our relationship, one of her good friends killing themselves mainly, and I think thats why she wanted to be with friends and do all that.. She started crying about all that for like 30 minutes, she was like I haven't cried since we broke up.. You are the only person I can show any emotions to.. Anyway, she said she would give me a call in a week or so, because she knew that I wouldn't call her. I told her if she called me more often I might call her some too.. and she was like "I just want to take this slow". I asked her take what slow? Then she kind of changed the subject and said we'll both be up at school for the summer.. because we are both taking summer classes at the same college.. I have no idea what that means.. Then she had a paper to write so we were about to get off the phone.. We flirted for a minute then she said bye.. like 3 times she said bye.. like she didn't want to get off the phone or something..

 

Any ideas as to what the hell this means.. My only interpretation is that she is figuring out how good she had it, and how happy I am now.. and how this whole space thing isn't what its cracked up to be.. and she maybe is thinking about trying to rekindle something over the summer?? Why else would she want to call me and flirt with me every week? Kinda scared if that does happen... and i do get back into things with her the same thing could happen all over again.. or maybe i would get back with her and I wouldn't be able to trust her so I wouldn't let her that close again.. I don't know

 

comments are appreciated.. thanks

[westernxer]

It means nothing. If it did, you wouldn't be second guessing yourself. The only way she can show you is by telling you. So far she's told you nothing.

 

So you're going up to school for the summer, eh? Better to be unattached... lots of girls you'll meet, so kick her to the street.

[Ty]

Yea since we broke up I've met a bunch of girls.. bunch of girls that were interested as soon as they heard that me and the ex broke up.. I dated this one girl for like 2 weeks but I just broke it off earlier today because I knew she wasn't the right girl and I didn't want to end up hurting her..

 

Also I'm not second guessing myself about whether or not it meant something.. because i know it meant something.. just wandering what exactly.. I do still love her and would like to try to rekindle, just don't know if it would work because of how bad she hurt me. Don't know if i could ever get over that.