xyz0123 Posted April 22, 2015 Posted April 22, 2015 Hey. (She broke up after 3 years) It's been 1 month of NC but we spoke yesterday because there were some issues in my family and besides my friend (that was her friend too) passed away.. I jumped into no contact in the first place because I haven't done anything bad, but she was mad at me all the time. Which she shouldn't be since it's her that broke my heart. And I was nice despite all. Anyways.. Yesterday we exchanged some texts. After really little time, I don't know why but I started to be the mad one. I was writing to her in the most negative way possible.. It wasn't throwing ****s and all that, but rather using the good things that I've made with her and saying "It's a shame that I've done that with you/showed you that/taught you that". Or I said that I don't feel slightest sign of empathy when she said that she cares about me. She wasn't mad at all. She was pretty calm and replied in a nice way all the time. Despite all my negativity I also mentioned that I regret that we didn't talk more about our wishes in life as individuals and that I was little too childish. But that she's done a lot of wrong too. She stopped responding, so I stopped writing more.. Today I suddenly got a text saying that she will always keep our 3 years in her heart and that it was really wonderful time. That everything was important and I may not believe it, but it means to her a lot and that she is sorry that we didn't work out in the end. I didn't reply to that. Honestly it messed with my head. I am confused and standing between "Ok. I can be friends with her" or going back to NC. She seems like she's moved on (but not really?). It's been only 2 months since the break up. At least I am glad that she had guts to apologize and I'm glad to know that the next guy in her life will have a tough time with her. Yesterday I was negative mainly because my friend that passed away, was a boyfriend to my other friend that I've known for 9 years. And I got to know that my ex was reaching out to her and suddenly wants more contact with her and all that. But also that she was saying to her things like "You are young, you will find someone". And that was messed up, so I am mad. Who tells stuff like that to someone that just lost the significant other.. I hate my ex for that so much but still love her.. Not to mention that she told me to never contact her friends again and get away, but I didn't say a word to her that she shouldn't contact my friends either. What do you guys think? I feel kinda happy but sad and mad..
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