SamJose Posted April 19, 2015 Posted April 19, 2015 Hello All, I was silent reader always wanted to write here when I was depressed, but by reading some of the threads, I could relate my situation and I would have the answers for my problems. I broke up with my ex 2 years back, 2013 Feb.. She dumped me, I followed NC broke it couple of times and maybe after 2 months I followed NC strictly. During my NC I was curious to know what is happening to her and I used to call our mutual friend and in a way indirectly ask about her. While I got her Updates I was devastated by knowing that she is happy and moving on. Sometimes my friends used to tell me that they had seen her in the bar with a guy and all.. But no one has confirmed about whether she has a new guy or not! It use to kill me while I got her updates. This went on for like 4 months and I decided that I won't ask for her updates and told my friends not to give any news about her! Its been like 2 Years now, I got busy with work, traveled a lot saw new places, met new people, workout at gym ( not very regular) and + strict NC Life is just fine, lonely and just going on. I met new girls and didn't get into any relationship even though they wanted to. Girls I met were good and my friends were dying to have them or been in relationship with them but I never felt that spark or I wasn't attracted to these girls! I rejected couple of them but I am still good friends. My doubt here is even after 2 years, following all post break up rules why do I still think about her? Why do I sometime miss Her? Why don't I find girls attractive even though they are? Am I stuck somewhere? is something wrong with me? The main reason I wanted to post today was she stays very close to my house and i havn't seen her after break up. I managed not to bump into her till now. Yesterday while accepting a connection at LinkedIn, i found her profile as suggestion ( had blocked her in all social media but not LinkedIn as she didn't have an account then). I just viewed her profile out of curiosity and i got to know where she is working now. Today I am depressed, but not as depressed as I used to be 2 years back but feeling low and lonely. I know this would pass and I will be fine tomorrow as I guess the depression is not intense. But why isn't there any progress ??
Marco Valerio Posted April 19, 2015 Posted April 19, 2015 Hi friend, Well, that's easy, she meant a lot to you!! you did love her deeply!! Sometimes it's easy to get over someone, other times it's not. Be proud of yourself, your feelings were true, that's no very common nowadays. You are doing the right things, so keep it up. P.D. I'm in the same path (18 months post BU).
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