PhyshCake Posted April 19, 2015 Posted April 19, 2015 I honestly dont know where to start, well obviously my partner and I broke up It's a semi long story just so its established i have a critical lung condition so hospital stays aren't a new thing for me and i think some of my meds played a part and towards the end i wasnt the most talkative person heres a tl:dr We were together for 6 years, we got a dog last year, we had a fight on new years (i was going to propose at the end of the countdown),we got talking and had out 6 year anniversary, a day later she broke up with me, she left me for her cheating ex 3 weeks later saying she hadn't loved me in 2 years the not so tl:dr we met in highschool ourselves, she was the girl in my german class, i never really talked to her till year 12 (senior year for you americans) in year 11 she had a relationship with a guy for about 5 months before he cheated on her, needless to say she was devastated and refused to trust anyone with her emotions or even trust anyone i started dating her shortly after the year after graduation, after 5 months she made me promise i wouldn't cheat on her in any way, i agreed on the grounds she do the same, with the reply of "I'm not capable of doing that to you" Fast forward to where i think the issues started, due too my condition i started taking painkillers, they kept giving me more as they thought my metabolism was really fast so by the end of the trial run i was in a sense high 24/7 on them, at the time i didn't think it was an addiction but after a few months i couldn't stop taking them, after a few months of this her ex tried to talk to her, she asked if i was ok with this, I said it was fine and that i trusted that she wouldn't get involved with him It was later revealed that one of his friends had spread the rumor that he had cheated on her and the entire thing was untrue, I thought it odd he would blame a dead person for it but i didn't raise any concerns a year before we broke up we got a dog, she thought it was the next step in our relationship By this point my painkillers were taking a bit more of a toll then a thought they would, i'd be responsive but not 100% there at all times About 6 months before the breakup she started talking to her ex ALOT more, apparently he was about to get married and things broke apart for him due to emotional reasons, my ex being the person she is tried to help him out by talking to him and helping where should could She was starting to shut me out to the point she never wanted to go out on dates or anything, i started to get worried she wanted some space so i left her to do what she wanted to sort herself out The night it fell apart was on new years, i had been planing a surprise for over a months, water side near a fireworks display in a really nice hotel, she had no clue what so ever, after a close call on the road the night was over with her saying she never wanted to see me again this was a real kick to me and i decided the painkillers had a part in it what happened so i cut them out completely she talked to me a week later about our anniversary and how she acted without thinking we went out, had lunch, had a good laugh about things, i thought it went rather well 3 days later she called me and said we had to talk and we broke up on the spot At first i was fine with it but after 3 weeks i couldn't take it anymore, it was her birthday and i sent her a text asking if we could hang out, she shut me down and said we can catch up in a few weeks a few weeks came, i found out she was dating her ex again the day before her birthday, i took our dog to my place and i had a mental break down, called her up and was begging for a chance ect, she came and picked the dog up saying the dog was no longer half mine and that she hasnt loved me in 2 years after a week of me calling/texting her she told me the dog was no longer mine and to never call her again, that was mid march at this point, i stopped all contact with her she texted me after 3 weeks asking if she could buy some of my camping gear from me, after a lot of talking i broke and told her about the planned proposal, the conversation didn't last long there after she called about a months after saying i have some stuff left to pick up and to visit the dog, i doubt this is anything other then "get your **** and go" i know her family don't like the new guy but she's head over heels for him as far as i can tell as she spend her weekends at his place, i still talk to one of the family as hes in the same field of work as i am and we help each other with various things, he has also been helping me through my emotional problems with the entire thing from where i stand she was emotionally cheating on me and i was too blind to stop it when it started All of that being said, i wasnt the best partner i could be, towards the end when she was shutting me out i didn't show her how i felt or how much she meant to me I've cleaned up med wise and realised where i went wrong, if this is a rebound i hope she will come back to me as 6 years is along time to just throw away I still love her dearly but i honestly dont think she'll come back after everything that has happened, she is known to be rather stubborn and rarely changes her mind If she does and i still feel anything for her, the ring will be waiting, if anything i'll keep it as a reminder not to let my meds get in the way and to try to talk about issues more often In the highly unlikely that the person i'm talking about is reading this I still love you honey bunny
Author PhyshCake Posted April 19, 2015 Author Posted April 19, 2015 I also should add, her family love me around and her parent have said im the son they never had
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