LooperDooper Posted April 6, 2015 Posted April 6, 2015 As usual, one of my bad and lonely days. Heard at school some rumours going on about me how I picked a fight with my ex's new love (or sex?) interest, which are completely untrue as I've never even talked to him before. It started last week when the entire class was out celebrating a birthday and a friend of mine picked a fight with him due to some money issues over paying some drinks. I mean, I don't want to be with her anymore as I became very disappointed in her actions and her lack of trying, but these things get to me. I feel like she's happy with him, while I date just for the heck of it, without really feeling much because I'm the type to be as loyal as they come, and I'm not completely free yet to actually enjoy dating and courting at the moment. I guess I just feel down I was reminded today that she left me for somebody else and that now the classroom thinks I'm making a big deal out of it. I don't know where they hear these things, but I've maintained my side of NC for a good month (and more), yet I feel like things are going up against me. I feel like people who respected me are now slowly drifting away and it's making me feel more isolated. I haven't done anything to anybody, let alone talk to her, I'm not sure if people are talking about me behind my back . I just wish my class and my academic career wasn't so high school like, I just want to move on and to be left alone but clearly it's not happening when immaturity is so near me. Just feel sad is all, it's not like I want to get back with her, I just want her completely gone from my life. I feel like it's not going to happen because somebody will put me there, maybe even her I don't know. I have a feeling she's going to try and reach out to me at some point (or maybe she's trying to get me to do it) but I don't want any of that, I just want to let go and be free. Thanks for those who read it at least, needed a little rant today.
dvx Posted April 7, 2015 Posted April 7, 2015 As usual, one of my bad and lonely days. Heard at school some rumours going on about me how I picked a fight with my ex's new love (or sex?) interest, which are completely untrue as I've never even talked to him before. It started last week when the entire class was out celebrating a birthday and a friend of mine picked a fight with him due to some money issues over paying some drinks. I mean, I don't want to be with her anymore as I became very disappointed in her actions and her lack of trying, but these things get to me. I feel like she's happy with him, while I date just for the heck of it, without really feeling much because I'm the type to be as loyal as they come, and I'm not completely free yet to actually enjoy dating and courting at the moment. I guess I just feel down I was reminded today that she left me for somebody else and that now the classroom thinks I'm making a big deal out of it. I don't know where they hear these things, but I've maintained my side of NC for a good month (and more), yet I feel like things are going up against me. I feel like people who respected me are now slowly drifting away and it's making me feel more isolated. I haven't done anything to anybody, let alone talk to her, I'm not sure if people are talking about me behind my back . I just wish my class and my academic career wasn't so high school like, I just want to move on and to be left alone but clearly it's not happening when immaturity is so near me. Just feel sad is all, it's not like I want to get back with her, I just want her completely gone from my life. I feel like it's not going to happen because somebody will put me there, maybe even her I don't know. I have a feeling she's going to try and reach out to me at some point (or maybe she's trying to get me to do it) but I don't want any of that, I just want to let go and be free. Thanks for those who read it at least, needed a little rant today. Man up. Continue NC. Disregard rumors. Acquire aesthetics ( hit the gym ). No one can put you anywhere or in any situation, only you can do that, and don't do it. And when she reaches out, you cancel that b*** like nino.
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