Heart broken :(

[Seanyp88]

Hey I've been struggling for a while now to get over my heart break and I really need to talk about it! I meet a girl a year and a half ago ! We started talking on social networking and she said she had seen my around over the years ! We got on really well and started to meet up ! Turned out she lived on the same road as me now here's the reason why ! She was in a mother and baby hostel with her 6 month old because of her ex bf who was a night mare! Physically and mentally abused her for 3 years and forced her to move into this hostel because he kicked in her mums front door wouldn't leave her alone where ever she went! We become very close and soon enough I feel in love with her and bonded with her baby! We were good but he was always in the back round constant texting calling obsessive ness to the max and then he found out about us I got the threatening Mail on Facebook you know the drill ! Anyway no matter what he did she always ended up feeling sorry for him and this was hard to trust a few times she still meet up with him and didn't tell anyone she said he wanted to he's child which I understood but he was a threat to them both! Eventually she changed her number moved out and got her own place and things seemed to be a lot better for us ! We were great and happy and I spent all my time with her and her daughter I loved them both so much ! In September she feel pregnant with mine and didn't want to keep it so she had an abortion which was hard on us both but more her ! Then we broke up in October and didn't talk for a few days. We still were close and she said she still had feelings for me so we carried on meeting spending time with her and her daughter we were good until just after Xmas her ex was involved in a crime which meant he might be going to prison ! One day she randomly said she wanted to move away from everyone and I got upset and we fell out she didn't talk to let for a few days and when I got through to her she told me she wanted me to leave her alone that she never loved me like she loved him and they are probably getting back together! This wasn't the first time she had said something horrible and the next day she text apologising and said we could be friends but she needed time. I didn't hear from her for a whole week and during this week I found out from someone that on her ex snap chat he was round her flat ! A video of him with he's baby in her lounge ! Now I got nothing against someone wanting to see their child but he was controlling and abusive and violent ! She said she never wanted him to find out where she lived she was scared of him and she even had a court order taken out where he wasn't allowed to have he's daighter by himself or the police could take her! A residency order I think ! I was heart broken when I found out after everything he's round there with her! She text me the next day saying her phone was broken and could I fix it for her. I never confronted her about him I didn't want to argue anymore. Sook after she told me she wanted to move out her flat as soon as possible this was all in late January. I knew it was because he now knew where she lived and I of course wanted to help her find somewhere I didn't want to have a go at her for having him round even if I sound like a mug I really cared for her. Beginning of February about the 7th she invited me over and not seeing her for a month which was the longest we ever went ! I went over there she seemed happy to see me was flirty and touchy but nothing happened ! She suggested we get each other valentines stuff and the next week she stayed at her sisters the whole week so she was away from her flat looking after her sisters dogs ! I sent her flowers a card balloons the works on Valentine's day she was made up and told me I meant a lot to her we talked all that week and was great like we use to be and she said soon as she gets back I can see her ! The week she is back she says she going to be very busy and I might see her when she said ! Now her ex's bail was up beginning of March but On the 25 th of February he had he's bail extended to May which is her daughters second birthday and after that I stopped hearing from her kept telling me she was busy and letting me down so I waited 4 days and phoned her she seemed off and told me she has recently meet someone ! I was heartbroken and still am ! She stuff like they were talking just as friends then he asked to take her out but she hasn't told anyone yet until she's ready ! And she said she hadn't told her own mum yet who it is and she told her mum everything ! I just think it's him and I know what everyone's going to say move on she made her choice Etv and I know that ! I told her I was glad she was ok and happy and I left her alone and no it's been 3 and a half weeks of no contact ! It's just been so hard because I've had to let her go and her daughter who frankly felt like my daughter and I do still love her very much I don't wish her any harm but I'm worried if it's him that she will end up in a really bad place I just don't know how to feel anymore any one give me some good advise please or opinions please

[NC-Thomas]

Could you make use of paragraph's, its very hard to read now!

[BrandonWard]

Holy crap... Couple more walls like that you could rebuild Rome from the ground up!

 

Use paragraphs T.T