geronimo Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 It's been a bit over 4 months since my breakup, we dated for 5 years and ended up breaking up due to religion/family. But she started seeing another guy weeks after our BU. I'm sure it's a GIGS/Rebound but it still hurts. I have been in NC ever since the breakup but I used to check some social media sites (Twitter, tumblr) since she isn't private on those (I had deleted her off everything a month after our BU. Anyways a few days ago I stopped checking those social media sites also cuz there wasn't anything on there really and I don't want to end up seeing something about her and her new bf. I still love her a lot and wish that maybe one day she will come back but I know it may never happen. It just disgusts me to think that she can be intimate with someone else. I know she isn't my gf anymore and I shouldn't care but I can't help it. We were both Eachothers first relationship, first loves, and we never had sex cuz she wanted to wait till marriage. But I can't help but think that maybe she is doing it with this new guy, maybe not even as a fault of her own but him pressuring her to do so. Either way I can't escape these thoughts and they make me sick. I try to occupy myself so that im no longer thinking about her or these thoughts but I can't help it. I feel like such an idiot it's been almost 5 months since the breakup and she is still in her relationship while I'm hwre still picking up the pieces, thinking about her all the time and all this sh*t. It's just not fair. I treated her so well throughout the relationship, there wasn't anything I wouldn't have done to keep her happy. Some of my friends gfs would give them **** cuz they wouldn't treat their girls the way I treated mine and everyone thought she would never be the one to leave me. I know I deserve better, someone who loves and cares about me as much as I do for them and who won't leave whenever another guy shows interest or w/e but I can't help my feelings for her. She meant everything to me and still does.
PaperCrane Posted April 2, 2015 Posted April 2, 2015 Yeah, it's going to hurt. You're going to feel all these things about betrayal, almost like what was yours was taken from you, and the thoughts of her with someone will inject themselves into your thoughts. All of the self help pictures and motivationals you see online don't dull the pain, and they will not. Only time will. It will take a long time, but it will go away. There is no point to be found in blame, or thinking about what she is doing or not doing. One day you will wake up and simply not care. The day will come, but for now just live. Be good to yourself as best you can. 1
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