markestevez73 Posted April 2, 2015 Share Posted April 2, 2015 Hello. My name is Mark. I would start by saying I am not an English speaker so I apologize if the grammar is not perfect. I am 25 yr old. I never been in a relationship. I think I am gay inside but I don't like everyone to know. I decided to contact male escorts multiple times. Usually after having sex I don't feel anything. However, this last escort I have met was so different. The 1st time I met him. I felt different. We had oral masturbation and oral sex. After the session, I got home and I keep on thinking about him. After a week, we had 2nd meeting. We were laying on his bed. I hugged him for 30 minutes while he was touching my hand, gave him his money after the session. I sent him a message when I got home. I asked him how he feels about me. He told me that I am special and different from his other clients. He told me also that he doesn't kiss nor hug other clients, he only does it to me. He gives other clients erotic massage. I asked him if he only wants money from me, his answer is, its not all about the money. It is the affection you have for me and I have for you. If you want you can come back next time and do not give me money. I only do this job because I need to pay the bills. He invited me to eat outside or watch movie. I do not know what to do. This is my first time feeling this. I have never fall in love before. I am scared to get hurt. Should I continue pursuing this guy or better stop now. I am hoping to get an advise from you guys. Link to post Share on other sites
Ruby Slippers Posted April 2, 2015 Share Posted April 2, 2015 I asked him if he only wants money from me, his answer is, its not all about the money. It is the affection you have for me and I have for you. If you want you can come back next time and do not give me money. He invited me to eat outside or watch movie. So try that and see how it goes. You wanted to see him again anyway for money, right? So see him without money in the mix - this changes it from a business arrangement to a personal one. But start thinking about a few things: If things progress well, are you OK with him being an escort and having clients, or do you want him to stop seeing the others? If he stops seeing the others, will he be able to support himself with a regular job? If not, are you willing to support him, temporarily or long-term? There are never any guarantees in life or love. But loving and being loved is what really cracks us open and strips us down to the essence of who we truly are - which is always a good thing. Good luck 2 Link to post Share on other sites
pteromom Posted April 2, 2015 Share Posted April 2, 2015 Do you live in a country where being gay could have horrible consequences? If not, it is time to quit hiding who you are, and just be yourself. As far as this guy, I understand you have a lot of feelings toward him, but are you ok with what he does for a living, if things were to get more serious between you? If not, there is no point in seeing him again. But if so, then YES, take the risk and call! It may end in heartbreak. Lots of love does. But it may just lead to something wonderful. Only one way to find out. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author markestevez73 Posted April 2, 2015 Author Share Posted April 2, 2015 I am fine what he is doing. I don't care if he is an escort. I respect his job and I understand it. I don't know if that's wrong. I am so happy whenever I am with him but yet scared of the consequences. He told me that he never had any client like me. He is 3 years older than me. I dream of him and he is always on my mind. He also send me message like you are special to me. I miss you and he even cancel one of his appointment with his client just to stay with me. I don't know if I believe or trust him on the this he is telling me. I am going crazy with all the What If's in my mind... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Ruby Slippers Posted April 3, 2015 Share Posted April 3, 2015 I don't know if I believe or trust him on the this he is telling me. I am going crazy with all the What If's in my mind... Whether someone works in the sex trade or not, the only way to get to know them and grow to trust them is to spend time together. Life is full of what ifs. Instead of focusing on those, focus on what is and go from there. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Hawaii51 Posted April 4, 2015 Share Posted April 4, 2015 I think Captain Save-a-ho applies here. Go find yourself a nice boy and leave the sex-trade workers alone. It's awesome that you're coming to terms with who you are, but paying for sex is never healthy, Nor is working in the sex-trade. It's jokable, to fall in love with a current escort, it will not end nicely. it's not "Pretty Woman." 1 Link to post Share on other sites
pteromom Posted April 6, 2015 Share Posted April 6, 2015 I am fine what he is doing. I don't care if he is an escort. I respect his job and I understand it. I don't know if that's wrong. It's not wrong. You are allowed to create your own values. Sex workers need love too. I don't know if I believe or trust him on the this he is telling me. I am going crazy with all the What If's in my mind... Just be aware of what he may be trying to use you for. If he starts asking for money or trying to manipulate you into giving him something, I would back away. But if he is giving as good as he is getting, then you can move forward. Link to post Share on other sites
pteromom Posted April 6, 2015 Share Posted April 6, 2015 I think Captain Save-a-ho applies here. Go find yourself a nice boy and leave the sex-trade workers alone. It's awesome that you're coming to terms with who you are, but paying for sex is never healthy, Nor is working in the sex-trade. It's jokable, to fall in love with a current escort, it will not end nicely. it's not "Pretty Woman." Escorts are just people. You just have to wade in slowly and make sure you are being true to what you want and your own values. Link to post Share on other sites
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