Was NC the right thing to do?

[BobbyS95]

Almost 8 months ago now, a girl I had a crush on in highschool randomly texted me, and we’ve talked nearly everyday since. I’m shy and have never been in a relationship, so I didn’t make any major moves on her. We’ve been on and off with talking the past 3 months, so I figured she’d lost interest. I tried convincing myself to forget about her and move on, but it seemed everytime I tried to, she’d text me and reel me back in.

 

 

The other week I found out through Facebook that she started dating someone else, so I asked her about it. She could tell I wasn’t happy, so she confessed that she liked me back in highschool and still really liked me 8 months ago when we started talking. She didn’t think it was going anywhere and thought we got past liking each other, but continued to talk to me because she liked me in her life. I apologized for taking things too slow, confessed that I’ve liked her since highschool, and I that I still do like her. She said she’d hate to lose me as a friend, but she doesn’t want me to end up hating her or feeling miserable, so it’s up to me whether we stay friends or not. I told her I want to keep her in my life, but I just needed to think things over. She told me “That’s fine, do what you need to” and I never responded.

 

 

Now it’s 8 days later, and I still haven’t responded. I figured I needed NC at first to get over her, and I do feel a little better now than I did last week, but I’m still not over her yet (And not sure if I ever will be completely over her). But now I’m questioning whether this was the right decision or not.

 

I’m planning on texting her back (just not sure when) and it seems like the longer I wait the more awkward it’ll be. We’ve never gone this long without talking, and if I am planning on continuing to talk to her as just a friend, shouldn’t I of just gotten over it and been there for her?

 

 

Side-question: When I do text her back, what the hell do I say? Do I say something like “Hey, I got over you and I'm ready to just be friends” or do I pretend nothing happened and start up a conversation?