TunaCat Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 I'm struggling tonight. Tomorrow night it will be a week since he broke up with me. He asked for NC, I agreed. He proceeded to text & FB message several times me until I used the blocking function. As good as I was doing yesterday, tonight's really hard. I miss talking to him so much and I've wanted to break NC so many times today. I know if I did that, it would slow down my process of getting over him, so I'm continually talking myself out of it. Reminding myself that my revelation yesterday made me realize that there are things about him that don't fit with what I want. I think I'm realizing that feelings come in waves, both good and bad. Peaceful and gut wrenching. I miss him more than I ever thought possible. I blame this on the fact that we've been best friends for nearly 20 years. If we hadn't been lifelong friends, I don't think I'd be hurting so much.
darkbloom Posted March 30, 2015 Posted March 30, 2015 The first few weeks are the hardest. Especially if you were close friends first. *Hugs* I had a good day today and a slightly rough night. I am channeling my energy that misses him onto this site to help other people. I started a movie and had to stop it because it kept reminding me of my ex. I always think Sunday would be the only day he would choose to break this silent armistice we have got going on. It won't be me since I deleted and blocked him in every way I know how. I am 97 days without him as my drug of choice. I miss the comfort he brought even though he caused much of my anxiety. Is that the definition of a drug? 4
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