ttjames Posted April 13, 2005 Posted April 13, 2005 My ex and I broke up in Jan for mutual reasons..We were together for 3 years. Shes 20, I'm 26.. Really no hard feelings or anything.. We haven't seen each other for about 2 months until this past weekend when I came to pick up the rest of my stuff and help her move. Just a few days before this weekend we were talking and I asked if she had a new boyfriend.. She said "Hell no" and "If I wanted a boyfriend, I would be with you" However she is sleeping with someone else just for the sex.. So anyway I was feeling like I was on my way to getting over her until I heard her say that she would still be with me if she wanted a boyfriend. Suddenly I started having all these thoughts of her and wanting to be with her or wondering at least wondering if it was a possibility. Well I finally see over this past weekend, and at first it's kinda awkward and everything, then the tension eases and everything feels fine. That night we stayed together and I asked if she still had feelings for me... She replies back with " In what way? " Which pretty much answers my question... meaning No she doesn't have feelings for me in that way... Then later we end up kissing and having sex and all that... and it feels great.. we cuddle.. she keeps on saying that she misses me.. etc.. Then the morning her do it again.. It feels awesome to me and I feel like we're getting closer.. I guess i was letting my gaurd down... But I could see that she wasn't. Then during the next day she seems to be kinda acting distant as we're finishing cleaning the apartment and moving stuff out... That night it was way too late for me drive home so we stayed together again. We talk more about feelings and stuff... and basicilly I still really consider dating her if the time was right.. Which now is not because she is leaving next week for Paris and will be gone for 5 months... She still says that she really misses me, misses cuddling, being with me, I say that I still love her like before, but she doesn't really say the same. When I say I love you..(which i said only twice) SHe would reply with I love you too... And She said once "Love you" So i guess I'm just confused as hell right now. I know that we can't be together, but for some reason I just want to know if she still considers me a possibility for dating later in future.... I really would like to get back together with her later in life.... And I guess I want to know if she feels the same.. I want to ask her, but then again it's a wussy thing to do and will probably end up with some half ass answer anyway.. So what do you think? Should I ask the direct question, or should I just leave it be? From her actions it seems like she does, but then again she could have just been using me for sex or something.. Women confuse me!
bubblygrl5 Posted April 14, 2005 Posted April 14, 2005 She's leaving the country - so it is probably easier for her to maintain a little distance, knowing that she's goign to be soon distracted by Paris. As for wanting to date you in the future - she probably doesn't know the answer to that anymore than you do...hopefully the time and distance will be constructive and help you BOTH answer that question. Bubbly
Author ttjames Posted April 18, 2005 Author Posted April 18, 2005 Just a follow up: She's leaving Thrusday morning at 6:am and would like it I was the one that would take her. I'm having such mixed feelings about this right now. She lives 3 hours away and I'll probably have to skip a class or two to do it, not to mention we're probably end up staying up all night before hand. Part of me says.. That no way.. don't do it, because I'll just get more attached (because we will probably sleep together) and probably hope for something that isn't ever going to happen again.. Then another part of me says.. to just be mature, push the feelings aside.. don't read into it too much, and just take her to airport and say good bye. But i know it's going to be so much more complicated than that for me. I've felt like crap for the past few days from seeing her this past weekend when I helped her move. I feel like just ending it now and just telling her that I don't want to do it, but then again maybe taking her to the airport will put some real closure on it for me. I really don't know what to do.. I keep changing my mind.
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