Wings Of Love Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 I haven't posted here in almost a year because I'd mostly put my split with my ex boyfriend behind me. I'm here now simply to vent, in the hope that it will help me put it out of my mind. Last week, on Wednesday, after more than a year of zero contact with the ex or any of his extensive family, I bumped into his sister and his niece while out shopping. I was perfectly polite and made sure to act like it hadn't bothered me, but in truth I was slightly shaken. Still, neither of us mentioned him, we said goodbye and I chose to leave it at that and stop thinking about it. The very next day however, a slip up by my family meant I finally found out the truth. When I was with my ex, he worked with a girl. They spent a lot of time together, more than he did with me, and when I expressed my concerns he told me she was a lesbian so I didn't need to worry. Shortly after that she began a relationship with another woman, so of course I believed him. In January of this year however, my family discovered my ex was now in a relationship with this coworker. So I don't know what to believe. Discovering he has a girlfriend did not upset me. It's who the girlfriend is that hurt me. The day after that news came out was his birthday. I spent the day feeling sick thinking of him celebrating with her. But I eventually slapped some sense into myself and put them out of mind. I'm doing okay now, but occasionally I'm reminded of it and I start feeling sick all over again. I've been single since we split and for the most part I'm okay with that. But knowing that this person who lied to me, broke my heart and then told everyone that I was a suicidal maniac just to justify his actions is now with someone and seemingly very happy, I can't help thinking how unfair that is.
ome47 Posted March 24, 2015 Posted March 24, 2015 I understand exactly how you feel.. you give it you're all and concern yourself with his well being only to fail and find out out wasn't you that could make him feel complete. All you're doing now is hurting yourself by feeling inadequate and the anger isn't healthy. The next time you "bump into" a relative, just a quick hello (if you make eye contact) and be on your way... You need to let it go and focus on yourself for a while.. he possibly went with the lesbian (if she was even one).because it was easier for him than having an emotional relationship with you.. let him go. In The long run, he truly wasn't worth it. You may not think so now, don't let the anger drag you down.. you're better than that.
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