Ms_Alice Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 I need help. I'm pretty calm during the month, and I can take things easily without fighting with my boyfriend. But when my period is near, I get depressive and paranoid, and I fight with him ALL THE TIME. We're in a two year long relationship. We had a fantastic time in the beggining, no fights, no hard times... Until the day we had sex, which was a year after we began dating. I started to feel guilty, because I was a virgen and wanted to wait, but he wanted and I gave in. Now I have all this mixed feelings of not being worthy anymore. My parents don't know, so I can't talk to anyone about it. Everytime I get depressed, this feelings overwhelm me. I always had the feeling that we were meant to be, so it would be okay, because we would marry anyway, so he would still be the one. But I decided to talk to him about marriage, and he said no, not for now. He said he's investing on me, but he wants to wait for the right time, even for a engagement (I told him I don't want to marry right away, I just want the commitment, the promise, something to look for). So, my fear of being used only for sex broke me completely. I took sex off the table, not as a form of revenge, but simply because I feel guilty everytime I have sex; I said I needed to organize my thoughts so I wouldn't drive us crazy. After I took sex off the table, he seems distant... Oh God. I fear my worst nightmare is about to become reality. I'm so sad right now... I don't know what to do.. I don't want to talk to him more about it, because I feel like we talked too much already. But I need to hear someone! I need confort... So, please... Help.
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