emotionslie Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 Hello everyone. Today marked the day I entered a full no contact with my ex-fiance. We have been broken up for about three months now and for the first two I spent trying my hardest to show her how much I love her and want to make things right. She kept me almost at arms length coming over to cuddle at times then not talking to me for whole days at a time. It wasn't until I found a dating profile of hers that hurt me so bad a month ago that I had told her I cannot talk to her anymore. She did not like this at all. The past month has been spent mostly out of contact except for the times she would randomly text me antagonizing me about a girl I talked to or why Im doing. We had been together for three years and she has been through it all with me. Loving me as much as someone could possibly love someone. It wasn't until about five months ago that I started to take what I had for granted. I became distant. I got caught watching porn and basically didn't give her the attention she deserves. I know flat out a fully that I was wrong. I gate the fact that I hurt her and I do love her so much. I don't know why I had become so hard headed and dumb to not see I was hurting her so much. We had everything together and my actions caused her to have enough and leave. Tonight is the first 100% real night of NC and I'm struggling bad.
jus d'orange Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 Stick with NC. This will get better. You're on a rollercoaster of bad emotions at the moment but it'll smooth out. Just give it time. In the meantime, take care of yourself, even when you don't feel like it. Drink plenty of water, eat healthy regular meals, and get in the best shape of your life. After breakups I've followed up an intense workout by crying for an hour or two. Didn't really feel good, but in the long run I was fitter and letting my emotions out in a healthy manner, and all away from the exes. Months down the road you'll be thanking yourself for taking the initiative during this time to not let it take over your entire life. As I said, you may not feel good, but you'll start enjoying life again sooner if you do the things you know you enjoy until they feel good. Stick close to your friends and family. If you think it'll help, look into counselling so you have an outlet for the toughest of your thoughts and regrets. 2
Karin2rinkashi Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 She left you for what? Was there a reason behind it? or did she just lose interest. If she just lost interest than **** that ****ing bitch. Get the **** up, do something with you life. Show her that she made a mistake. Hit the gym, get in shape, learn how to skydive (just an example), change your god damn life. And let her deal with her "issues" And when you are living your life like a boss and she is done with her issues, she will come back (not 100%). Then if she does, tell her to FU CK OFF!
Author emotionslie Posted March 23, 2015 Author Posted March 23, 2015 Im putting a lot more time in at work. The next three days I will have a lot of time to myself though. I'm gonna back into my workouts. I've lost a lot of weight in the past 5 months. She did leave for a reason. I started getting distant. When I say this girl loved me I mean she loved me to an unbelievable level. I started taking things for granted. Took her for granted. I seem to be very gold af doing this and it's something I need to really work on. I started playing way to much video games during my down time. She begged me at times just to ly down in bed wi th her at night. I would sometimes then I'd we up in the middle of the night and get on the computer or play more ps4. I was so selfish and I realyy would do anything to just stay in bed with her. There were a few other things along those lines that I did. She had enough one day and after telling me multiple times she would leave me she finally did. I didn't believe her. I still don't understand how blind I could be. It's rediculous
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