hamster-girl Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 (posted here instead of sending it to him) I promised myself I wouldn't speak to you again, not after you left me. You'd complained I wasn't right for you and you couldn't see a future for us together. Months ago you said you didn't know what you wanted and asked for a break. I refused, knowing that was just an excuse for you to sleep around and have some fun, and then leave me anyway. I wanted us to work at our problems. Well in the end you got what you wanted. You left me and within two weeks had met someone else. You didn't even give me enough time to move out of our house before finding someone else. You're away on a business trip and I've just moved out of our home. I've moved from our beautiful home next to the park into a house with six strangers. I'm paying over half my wages to live in a room not much bigger than the bathroom we had. I hope you're happy now. Not only have you broken my heart, you've crushed my spirit. If it weren't for the support of my friends, and the fact I have a decent job, I'm not sure what I would have done. Maybe jumped in front of a train. I feel so utterly alone now. When you apologised for leaving me, and cried on my shoulder, did you mean it? When you said I was like a rock to you over the past few years, was it true? When you told me your new woman is "just a rebound" to help get over me, was that supposed to make me feel better? Or were you just trying to calm me down so I didn't go crazy and destroy all your expensive possessions? Well I didn't. I didn't touch a thing. When you return home from your trip, I'll be gone. Just what you wanted. Now you can move on with your life and do whatever makes you happy - if you even know what that is. I hope one day soon you'll realised what you've lost. You're an awful man to live with - selfish, mean and a bully. But I put up with that because I loved you. I still love you, but you broke me.
jus d'orange Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 I know you still love him, but he sucks. Congratulations on taking the high road. You're on your way out to recovery. Stick with your friends and you'll make it through this. Keeping writing "to him" and posting it as it helps you. You may feel broken but you'll heal. 1
Stercrazy Posted March 23, 2015 Posted March 23, 2015 You're not broken. You deserve better. You will find better. You will become better from this experience. F**k him!
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