neildc Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 I've been NC with my ex for about three weeks now. I've been doing a lot better during this time after about a month of being in denial (pathetically, I might add). I was immature and afraid of commitment and left someone that really did mean a lot to me for a trivial reason. Either way, by the time I attempted to reconcile...it obviously was too late. Once I finally accepted what we had was over, I started working on myself, getting out with friends again, just staying busy and not having what was consume my thoughts. It was good for a while, but you ultimately realize you're doing it to keep your mind off her. I enjoy the things I am experiencing again now, don't me wrong. And I want to continue to do them because it makes me happy (and for that reason only). For some reason the past few days, I'm feeling like I'm down again and I don't know why. Nothing has triggered it. I wanted to reach out to her, but knew better. She's obviously not interested or moving/moved on so I know the right thing to do is to do the same. As much as I try, I have days like the past couple where all I can think about is being together with her again. I don't have a question I guess, just sharing some thoughts about falling down so to speak. I guess I just miss her love. It gets better over time, but it's hard at times. I feel as if I have had meaningful introspection (I get this is a LONG process), identified my weaknesses, and been able to start making some positive changes for me. It saddens me that I may never get a chance for her to see the mature, better version of myself is all. I'm happy we once love each other and wish we could again. That's all. Thanks.
HBK3317 Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 Hang in there brother. It will get better with time. 1
BlackbirdSong Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 It saddens me that I may never get a chance for her to see the mature, better version of myself is all. This x 10000. I've come so far already and this is what I most regret. Hopefully (there's that damn word again) we'll all get a chance to show our ex's our 2.0 versions. 2
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