BunHeadLA Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 So.. The cycle continues last week I had a great audition, interview for a well paying nanny job and a new place to live!!! Then this week I found out my friend has stage 4 cancer, I was let go because they decided to stay with their old nanny and back at square one. I don't have any more fight in me. I actually for one of those sugar daddy website. I think I just want someone who has money will help take care of me take me out to dinner sometimes and then just leave me Alone the rest of the time... I feel horrible because I have a friend with so much to live for-kids, a career, friends etc who is fighting to live and while my body is healthy I have nothing and I don't care about life or living... I have no reason. My ex is happy and still with the girl he left me for and I'm still in a home where I'm uncomfortable and have no control...
minimariah Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 *hugs* how old is your friend? you do have a lot to live for! i know things are hard right now and i know it's painful when you finally think something good is happenind and then BOOM! back to square one, just like you said. but it's how it goes - ups and downs. don't give up, please. try to be strong and try to push past every obstacle. one day at a time, it won't be this bad forever.
Author BunHeadLA Posted March 22, 2015 Author Posted March 22, 2015 She's 36! I wish I believed that but it's been going on for nearly 10 years now ... And I don't have anything going for me I don't have anything to look forward to honestly... I could move back home 3000 miles away that has its own problems.. I'm going to be 34 and I'm so ridiculously far behind people my own age and even younger it's not even funny. I got good grades and I went to graduate school I did everything "right" things get better for me either for a week or even a month and then it gets bad again and that's not a good way to live. I don't want to keep fighting and persevering I've been struggling since the day I was born with health issues etc.yet the people who have hurt me like my ex and his new girlfriend have great lives. Jobs, money, friends , love, a permanent place to live... I'm 33 if it hasn't happened and it won't happen. I don't want to be the person who meet someone to date when they 50 or something like that
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