MLAZ1990 Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 Found the forum and decided to join. Been trying to recover from a break-up for a long time now! Don't wanna bore everyone with the story, so I'll keep it short. I knew her since we were 8 years old...we went to elementary school together and had crushes on each other. We went to different highschools and I went a year without seeing or talking to her. One day I was out with some friends and bumped into her. We exchanged numbers and began talking often. The old feelings came back and I finally asked her out. We dated for 4 years and I loved her more than humanly possible! I was such a sucker for her! We had are bad days but nothing serious. I wasnt perfect but I was good and faithful to her. Then things started to change, she started acting weird, so to speak...eventually our relationship ended. I was devastated! I struggled to deal with it. It didn't help that she was in a relationship a month after she dumped me either. 4 1/2 years later here I am, still I have some small feelings for her. I feel so pathetic! Like such a loser! It's been this long for me, meanwhile she was over me 4 1/2 minutes after she ended it.....I've been single since we broke up and have had no desire to try dating again. Now I believe love is a lie and it eventually ends or only continues because age/kids. I've sabotaged a few chances at a new relationship. I'm too afraid of having that happen again!
erklat Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 4.5 years is a long time indeed. Try to get some counselling because it seems like you have a trouble of letting go. You don't miss her, because that person doesn't exist any longer, but you probably reminisce about times when you were happier and had less responsibility.
binrob Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 Are you still friends? Because if you are that could be the reason to why you haven't been able to move on.
OneBigIdgit Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 Love isn't a lie. You have felt it and feel it now. Its just unfortunate how many people in this world never feel it, find it, let down their shell enough to experience it. Love hurts like hell a lot of the time even in relationships that's survive. I choose to believe that having felt true love for someone is worlds better than the people who have never felt it. Even if we are single 25 years after a busted relationship and are watching a movie where people are falling in love. We FEEL the connection. We experience it with them. Quite a bit of the audience will never understand how nice that feeling can be, even when intense pain has been experienced along with love. There are many kinds of shallow love but to have experienced that deep love that lasts years, even when the 2 people are continents apart, is truly a gift from Heaven because it gives us a shallow miniscule taste of what Gods love for us will be like
marcelo.santos Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 maybe what you are feeling here is not just love for this woman - looks like you have some kind of depression - I suggest you that you looks for professional help to diagnosis what is going. Do you have made any kind of counseling on these 4 years?
Author MLAZ1990 Posted March 21, 2015 Author Posted March 21, 2015 Since she ended things we really didn't talk. She messaged me a month later and lied to me about us getting back together and strung me along for a few months but that's about it. Last time I spoke to her was maybe March of 2011. I've thought of counseling/therapy but it's so expensive!
Author MLAZ1990 Posted March 21, 2015 Author Posted March 21, 2015 I wouldn't say I love her still, I do have some small feelings for her still. What kills me and makes me so depressed is she put me through hell and doesn't care because her life is so perfect. The things she would say to me were just amazing! Like, how do you say that to someone you claimed to "love", or someone that you've know for so long. I will never understand, thus I will never give another girl the chance to do the same!
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