Emma1234 Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 I've just woken up from a million vivid clear dreams about him and his ex and just everything. I'm feeling pretty messed up. I also just went on facebook and saw a photo (he is not my friend on facebook but it was a friend's photo that he was in) and that just triggered a lot of stuff. It has been nearly three weeks so I know it isn't long but I don't know how much longer I can cope with this. I know it's over, I have accepted that, I will never ever take him back, but when does my moving on/not hurting/feeling alive again happen? I don't understand why I am struggling so bad. I now have a three week vacation from university so I am at my parents house which is good but bad as it means I don't have any distractions as none of my friends are back. I also have the biggest piece of work in my life to do for my final grade and that is a lot of pressure. I also know that he is back visiting family from his country today and he'll probably be sorting things out with his ex. In a way I kind of don't know how to feel about that. Half of me says she hasn't taken him back, half of me says she has. I hope she hasn't for all of our sakes - she can get away from such a cruel person, he can grow up and man up and I don't have to deal with the pain of him being with someone else so soon. I go through stages of absolutely hating him combined with missing him to doubting myself and thinking that if only I had been a bit more like this or if only I had done this (even though I know it's ridiculous as I was incredible to him and he was just horrible). Any advice on the next three weeks and on getting over him quicker would be great. I feel like my head is messed up, I need t decide my career path over the next few weeks as well but I am doubting everything i enjoy/like, probably because me and him were so different. he has also made me feel insecure about money, he wasn't rich but his ex was from a family of millionaires (something he loved and what I have heard he wanted to go back to) and she has payed off her mortgage in her early 20's! That just makes me feel terrible, to be in that position would be amazing. I don't know, any support would be great guys, struggling a lot x
BlackbirdSong Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 I'm sorry to read your story. Mine is quite similar in some aspects. She left me 6 weeks ago and I still wake up crying from dreams of her happy with a new guy. She also comes from an extremely wealthy family, while I do not. It always made me feel uncomfortable and somewhat worthless. Supposedly the pain and hurt goes away, but 6 weeks in, I still feel like I'm at day 1.
HBK3317 Posted March 21, 2015 Posted March 21, 2015 I am five months in and I still have problems sleeping properly. Most of the times I am okay but then there comes that unfortunate night when I dream about her and it's so vivid I can swear it feels as if it actually happened after I get up. And then the whole day is ruined. God damn it what won't I give to not feel like this ever again. It's very messed up and totally out of control. The worst part is knowing that she in all probability doesn't even remember me.
Author Emma1234 Posted March 21, 2015 Author Posted March 21, 2015 I understand exactly what you're going through. The things is I KNOW we will get over them eventually and that one day we won't feel a single things for them but it's the now that hurts.
HBK3317 Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 I hope you are right Emma... I pray to God to show us that fateful day soon enough. I can't take the suffering anymore. 1
wantnotshould Posted March 22, 2015 Posted March 22, 2015 My dreams are happy ones of us having fun. Last month it was just us arguing, this month it's happy thoughts. I don't know which one is worse. Brains are scumbags. 1
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