She left me 7 month ago

[heartache25]

So my ex gf left me 7 months ago after months of argueing, we was together for 4 year, our 4th year was pretty bad, i no job, no income, so we cudnt do much but basically she left me, i was heartbroken, i chased for months and months. we met half way through the 7 month break up, had fun together in her house for a couple weekends then she called it off again, i was starting NC again at around month 5.

 

 

On Saturday, we both attended a friends childs christening, we had not spoke or seen each other in 2 months. we didnt know how to act, or at least i didnt but i just went with it.

 

 

we did the church part, no speaking, no eye contact, although aware of each others presense, all was good. so the pub came after, everyone went back to the pub, we started at 11.30am on the beers. Around about 3-4pm, i was pretty drunk and we intiated convocation, just laughing and talking fun stuff. i contined my night, not surrounding her but having fun with my other friends and mutual friends, as she did but we made it aware to everyone else, that we are fine with each other, together or not.

 

 

As the night went up, we got flirty from around 7-8pm...well i got really drunk, and a mutual friend said something to her while sitting next to me, about him wanting to sleep with her. Myself, very drunk at this point, didnt react well, i tried to leave the taxi by telling the taxi guy to let me off, everyone was aware something had happened to make me act like that.

 

 

about 30 mins later i was removed from a club from 3 bouncers for trying to fight him, police came but they said i was fine.

 

 

Anyways, when she came out to see that i hadn't been took from the police, she reacted with her lips and came over to start kissing me, she said im so happy your still here, i thought you had been taking away"

 

 

the night went on, with this mutual friend staying distant. anyways, i went back to her house at 3am, and we slept together, both very drunk.

 

 

we woke and just spoke about the night, the good and bad things that happened and the funny - i stayed in bed with her all day up until 7pm, a lot of kissing, cuddling, chilling with each other.

 

 

I left at 7, and we talked to each other on a social site, i said good night and she said, good night i love you xx??...i told her i loved her too and said goodnight.

 

 

Im confused, she hasn't done that in over 2 years.