king's knight77 Posted March 14, 2015 Posted March 14, 2015 I met this person through a friend back in September 2012. At that time I was in high school. My last year. I haven't had a gf in years and I wanted to be in a relationship. My friend introduced me to his gf sister. At first I didn't know what to think. She is a complete stranger and don't know a thing about her. Our first date was pretty bad. Mainly because my car smelled horrible. Aside from that I made a pretty good impression on her for she wanted to keep contact. About 4 days go by. Back them I didn't know when I should text her. I eventually had the guts to send her a message and we met at her house. For the first week we I wouldn't go inside her house. I am a shy person and there were over 5 people to whom I was a complete stranger. After that 1st week. I finally went inside and we decided to become partners. 2 months pass by and i stopped going to school as much. My performance dropped. Seeing her made me so happy. Fast forward to January 2013. We go inside her room and she starts to cry saying that she doesn't think we will work out I reassured her I wanted to make it work. We did. 2013 was a special year. I didn't graduate high school. I worked my but off and bought my first car. Then I lost contact with a lot of people. Fast forward to April 2014. My friend is getting married to her sister in Vegas. She did something I asked her not to do. When I found out I was more upset than anything.I wasnt mad just upset. We walked into her room and she said she doesn't think we will work out. I of course reassured her we can make this work. And we did since I was jobless at this time I was looking for a job and could not go to Vegas for the wedding. When she came back we were really happy. Advance to February 2015. She doesn't send me a message in the morning like before. I asked her to go on a drive with me on February 8th. We went to a ice cream place. When I drove her home there was mostly silence on the drive back to her house. I felt a sudden emotion. She returned an ID badge I gave her and was giving me most of my things I kept at her house. On February 8th at 9pm. She broke up with me and didn't offer me an explanation. The first 10 days were filled with crying and hurting myself. i sent her at least 5 emails asking things like did you leave me for someone else and stupid things like that. I finally got a reply. She said she missed me and my company but there things in the relationship that made her fell powerless. How she won't forget me easily. She at this time did not give mean explanation yet. One dozen emails later and a month later. I saw her for the first time since February 8th march 11th. She said that she felt I was using her as a bandaid. Or a drug as you will. She said I wasn't always honest with her and I will admit I wasn't always honest. But I was very honest throughout the entire relationship. And the one thing that hit me the hardest. She said she wanted someone who would treat her like a partner. I told her that I still wanted to make it work. She said that she hit the repeat buttons to many times and she couldn't anymore. She wanted other experiences. I talked to her mother and I told her that she and I could no longer make it work. Her mother hugged me and said that maybe when she sees you happy she will think about seeing you again. Her mother also said that i will always be family and i can visit her brother whenever i wanted. I told her thank you. I saw her brother who I am still friends with today. I told him and he said don't worry dude. She wasn't the one. I said I know man. It just sucks that I couldn't make it work. Before I let go of her hand I told her I still love. She said dany you have to let go. I did. I will remember that forever. My friend who Introduced her to me is happily married to her sister. I haven't talked to him in months. And I probably wont ever again. Im just sad that I loved her more than she loved me. She tried breaking up with me 2 times before. And I should have let her go. She is my first love. I literally feel like I will never let go. Its a long read and I'm sorry. I just want to know what I should do know. I know now not to contact her. I miss her. Yet she doesn't love me anymore.
kolleamm Posted March 14, 2015 Posted March 14, 2015 Oh man I'm so sorry to hear that. I went through a break up too and it was rough as well but here's what I learned, don't say lets make this work, if someone ever suggests leaving you let them leave, that is one of the mistakes I made before. Those kind of relationships are doomed from the moment that is mentioned. Overall give it time and please forget her otherwise you will set yourself up for more hurt. It took me about a month and a half to get over my breakup so it won't be super quick but there's other women out there. Just remember that in the dating world no one is your friend or your unconditional lover, it's a jungle out there and people leave each other in a heart beat. Stay strong
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