towardthefuture Posted March 11, 2015 Posted March 11, 2015 GF of 8 years left me in late november. So it's been almost 3 and a half months now. No attempted contact, no breadcrumbs, nothing. I was feeling better. Working out, lost a ton of weight, my apartment manager didn't even recognize me when she saw me a few weeks ago. I still haven't found a job but I'm applying to everything I can find and I might have something very low level coming up in june. It won't cover my rent but at least it will get me out of unemployment. Anyway the point of this thread is that I found an old picture of her on my phone from last year. It was her birthday and she was so happy with me. And I just started crying. It felt like it did months ago. All those feelings of missing her and wanting her back returned. Turmoil is the best word to describe it. I can never take her back as I'm almost certain she left me for someone else after having an exit affair. I can't believe she would do that after 8 years together, but I think that's reality. I don't want to feel like this any more. I just want to move on with my life. How can I forget though that I was in love. That I had someone I was really truly in love with and probably still am. I let her slip out of my fingers and I can never get her back, as though she died.
Bfef Posted March 11, 2015 Posted March 11, 2015 I know, it hurts. I got all pics of the ex and put them on a memory stick. Then I put it at the bottom of a box I never use. No chance of accidentally stumbling across them, but they are there if I ever need them again.
BC1980 Posted March 11, 2015 Posted March 11, 2015 Put the pictures where you can't see them. Pictures, especially for me, were very hard to look at it. I didn't even look at a photo of my ex for probably 10 months after I started NC. This past weekend, I accidentally saw a photo of my ex and his fiance on FB (a mutual friend posted it), and it was upsetting just to see him looking all happy with someone else. I was fine up until then, and I'm okay now but pictures do something.
Jonp219 Posted March 11, 2015 Posted March 11, 2015 Delete em. Never keep pics of an ex. Not even for later. 2
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