geronimo Posted March 9, 2015 Posted March 9, 2015 I just need to get some stuff out. My story is my first love of 5 years broke up with me last October/November. I have been in NC ever since Nov 20 with the exception of 2 days once in Jan when she came to visit me after my surgery and in Feb when she msged me on my bday and all i said back was a simple "thankyou" text. I had deleted her off all social media in the beginning of Jan and have stopped stalking her but I still miss her like crazy. The reason we broke up was cuz of religion/family but I also think its cuz of her age, we started dating when she was only 15, and I was 17. I think she got the case of GIGS since she started dating someone else within a month of us breaking up. But at the same time it feels like she just used me until someone more "suitable" came along since this new guy is the same religion as her. It just hurts alot because I was there for her throughout everything even though she didn't acknowledge it, she didn't have friends throughout highschool and was really sad/depressed about it, I kept telling her not to worry and she'll find better people in Uni. And i was right she did make friends and was happy, but pretty much a year into uni she leaves me, the person who has been with her when no one else was. I feel like I am about 50% over her since it has been 4 months now and she has been dating this new guy ever since, but a part of me wants her back because I do really love her still. Theres just something about her that no other girl has and when we were together we really had no issues. Everything was good in our relationship up until she decided to break up with me. I obviously did everything wrong in the beginning like begging and pleading and stalking but now I'm sticking to NC. It does kill me though because theres just something that tells me she is the one, I know its stupid to think that since she was my first gf and almost everyone thinks that of their first love but theres just something different about us. We used to love spending time together, I have friends who need to keep doing special things with their gfs and keep going to places/concerts/games to keep their relationship exciting but her and I genuinely loved spending time with eachother. We obviously did go on trips and things together but that was only so we can spend more time with eachother. I don't know what to do anymore, a part of me wants to forget her and move on completely but another part wants her back so badly. I have been working on myself, hitting the gym, trying to better myself and my school/career but she still crosses my mind every day. Does anyone out there have any advice for a similar situation? Does the dumper, especially one thats young ever come back?
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