Ch12345 Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 I was friends with this girl for 4 years and we were together for just over a year and we were so close literally did everything together but towards the end I just acted horribly with her like accusing her of things everytime she went out with friends and just mean to her in general I think the reason I acted this was due to me smoking weed every single day and I was mean to everyone we broke up 2 weeks ago she told me she was still in love with me and still cared for me but she couldn't be in a relationship anymore I knew as soon as she said it this was all completley my fault and I knew I had to Change I haven't smoked weed in the 2 weeks since it happened and my mood swings have already gone but everytime I've tried to reach out she just says your just pushing me away further respect what I want etc and I'm trying so hard to do this I just know the person I acted like wasn't me it was who I allowed myself to be and she will not give me a chance to show her I can change and I can understand why she wouldn't but it just doesn't make it any easier she was like my best mate I can't handle not having her in my life and she seems to have already moved on from me followin other lads on twitter deleting all the pictures of us the same night we broke up and just don't get how it's so easy for her I can't put into words how close we were and how much we told each other I just want to know if there's ever gonna be a chance she could change her mind and want me in her life again because I just know I could never be that person again it took something as catastrophic as this to show me the error of my ways but now I think it's too late and it's just killing I messaged her yesterday apologising for being so needy and desperate when we broke up basically begging for her back and I just said I realise that isn't getting me anywere and I can't say I've changed when I still act like a spoilt brat when I don't get my own way and she read the message straight away an replied 2 hours later saying continuing to message me like this is only pushing me away further I understand your upset and so am I but you need to respect what I want and stay away saying all these things over and again aren't going to change what's happening. I'm not going to message her again but to hear her say these things just hurt so much I've deleted all social media so I can't see who she's following an stuff but I just can't get her out of my head because I know she would still be with me if I just listened a day earlier and now it's too late and she's gone is there any chance she could change her mind and let me show her the me who she met and fell in love with or is it really too late?
Author Ch12345 Posted March 3, 2015 Author Posted March 3, 2015 I should add the fact she never treated me with anythin but love and I took all that for granted I realise this is all my own fault but I just don't get how the same day we broke up she's askin me to go for a meal with her and then we got into an argument and she just says I don't want this anymore and has been so adamant since and is literally acting like I don't exist already putting picture on of herself an following all lads who we argued over in the past I've deleted my social media now so I'm not tempted to look but am just lost without her speaking to me I want to know how she's doing it and I just can't I just know how happy I could still make her because we still have some amazing memories together it wasn't always bad and I just know I'm not that pathetic person anymore and I just want to show her that we helped eachother through so much an she just says that isn't enough anymore she just wants to be alone and wants me out of her life
mightycpa Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 Ah, see, she's a girl who was sent into your life to get you to pay attention to what you were doing and to change you. She was an agent of change, but typically, this means she's temporary. She's someone who has helped you to get ready for the one you're supposed to be with. You need to do two things. You need to accept that it is overYou need to remember why she was placed in your life, and continue forward with this improvement under your belt. That's how you'll best honor her. Don't squander this lesson you've been given.
Author Ch12345 Posted March 3, 2015 Author Posted March 3, 2015 I understand that's how it seems but It just doesn't feel finished we met up last week to talk about it and she reiterated the things she had already said but kept smiling everytime I said what I wanted to do to prove to her how different it could be and she kissed me and said it was over again then kissed me again for a bit longer and started crying and went into her house haven't seen her since I text her and asked her why she kissed me and she said it was a goodbye kiss obviously but I just don't believe that if you don't want anything to do with someone anymore why kiss them I said to her so is this over forever and she said no one said that we have got forever to be together again and that she still feels like she belongs to me but if that's the case why is she already seeking attention from all these dickheads who she told me made her feel like nothing and I was the only one who didn't use her for one thing and loved her for who she was I don't get how she can just block it out because that's what she said she's doing I just want to know if there's a chance she might stop blocking these feelings i believe she still has
mightycpa Posted March 3, 2015 Posted March 3, 2015 I just want to know if there's a chance she might stop blocking these feelings i believe she still hasSorry, I misunderstood your question. No. No chance.
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