Justifie Posted February 23, 2015 Posted February 23, 2015 This has never happened to me before. I can't get this guy out of my head. I've been looking for him for a few months now since I last saw him. Not actively looking, but I would look out for him whenever I ride the same subway as when I last saw him. It's driving me crazy that a stranger can have this kind of effect on me. I think it's really the factor of the unknown that bothers me. I would've felt better if I had known something about him, like we're actually not compatible or that he's already taken, but I'm left not knowing anything. I even contemplated writing a Craigslist Missed Connection ad for him, but even I'm too chicken to actually post it on CL, so here it is just to get it out of my head. My question is, what do you think happened to him? It just bothers me that the day that I realized I was falling for him and I was no longer in a relationship, he literally disappears the next day and I haven't seen him since. Second question is if you’re a guy, would you be creeped out or flattered to find a CL missed connection about you? ~~~~~~ I first saw you during the summer of 2013. I was one of the last ones to get on the subway and sat in the front. A few minutes after sitting down, I noticed this tall, dark and handsome man sitting across from me, stealing glances at me. You kept looking at me like I was the most beautiful thing that walked into your life (or at least on that subway ). You did this during the entire ride to downtown where we both work. Perhaps you didn’t notice, but I too quickly looked over at you. You had a nice, full set of medium-dark brown hair and you weren’t wearing a ring. No ring. Check. Why is he single, I asked myself? Why is he still looking at me? My stop was always before yours. A few months went by here and there, and I would see you again. Each time, I caught you stealing glances at me. Another time after I haven’t seen you in a while, you finally got out of the subway at my stop. It seemed like you had been looking for me after the long intermission of not seeing each other, and you finally wanted to say something to me that day, but you didn’t. Instead, I saw you looking directly at me and then even went inside the building I worked at, but you didn’t even say hello or even hold the door for me as I was right behind you. You left me watching you walk away, dumbfounded. After that, I saw you sitting by yourself a few times on the train, and I contemplated if I should come and sit by you, but I didn’t. I just walked pass your seat and went my way. Perhaps you don’t know, but I was in a relationship at the time, and so I wasn’t actively looking for anyone. Although I’ve always noticed you, I never reciprocated because I did not want to lead you on, knowing that I was attached to someone else even though I was unhappy in that relationship. I wanted to start things right with the next person I was with. The more I saw you, the more I realized that I was falling for you, but just when I realized this, you disappeared. You stopped taking the usual train I would see you on. I looked for you every day for the last several months and wondered where you’ve been. Why did you stop taking that train? Is he avoiding me now and taking a different train? Does he even work or live in the same area anymore? Crazy, unnecessary thoughts have been lingering my mind since I last saw you. Every guy that has similar hair and build as you became you, but after the second or third glance, they were never you. I usually don’t feel this way about strangers, but somehow, you became part of the motivation for me to end a relationship that I knew wasn’t meant to be, in hopes of being with someone who would be. Come back and ride the train again, and this time, say hello.
BluEyeL Posted February 23, 2015 Posted February 23, 2015 That sounds a bit crazy. It'll not work out. Go and meet real men and don't chase a fantasy.
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