DatingDirection Posted February 23, 2015 Posted February 23, 2015 I miss your laugh, perhaps your laugh was a reflection of mine, a sound so familiar. I miss your smell, like fresh laundry, the smell of fabric softner, oh how i loved your smell. Your soft skin, so baby soft, i could put my lips all over your skin, and feel a sense of ease. I miss that sparkle in your eyes, they shined so bright when you smiled. I miss your arms, so long they wrapped around me, in your chest i bear my body, and snuggle up close to your heart, where i felt so loved, and safe. I miss your black curly hair, so wavy, and silky, and black. I miss your quircks and little sayings, but what i don't miss is paying...paying in the form of emotional pain. I don't miss, the feeling of being scared, scared that you will leave me. i don't miss watching you flirt in your language you called an exception to the rule, it was ok to fool, me with your flirtatious desires for the other women, in your on line world. i don't miss the insults, the sarcasim with stabs, jabs at my body and mind. i don't miss the guilt, the manipulation of feeling i was crazy and delusional of feeling insecure, and scared that you only loved me for the surface things you saw, instead of really going deep and allow me to be me and accepting that, with love and light. it's ashame to know, that what an amazing and unimaginable story of how we met, had turned out so bitter sweet in the end. And so i find myself, pining over another man, who i can only imagine the love we could have shared together, if only...if only...i knew who he was, because really i have no idea who you are, all i know is that after 1 year of here and there, spending time and taking it to the wine, and then, some more, between the sheets, could lead to such a stinging feeling in my heart, for a man i barly know, but i want. So in the end, now and again, my heart beats in pain for the past man, who was quite vain, and for the present man, who is no longer apart of my present, and in the past, what a double heart burn that is...Anyone have any tums?
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